stuck...

between

what i want and making people happy

blending in and having more time for myself

moving on and turning back

personal goals and to strive for a higher purpose

basically means

i'm stuck between

studying and not studying. the essence of a medical student's life.

thankfully i will be heading back msia soon! to be reminded of how it feels like to live a life outside hall, med campus and getting my head buried in food instead of Gray's or Robbins all the time >.<

missing you

came across this image SH edited and slipped into my pen drive before she returned it to me right before I left to HK.

I never knew how much I actually enjoyed my college days until the time I went back msia during winter break. During those 2 weeks, I would laugh till I cried, shout till my voice turned hoarse and I wasn't being afraid of saying/doing the wrong thing. I could be myself and not worry about the implications it would bring because people around me were so REAL.

And though nothing can ever be the same, I'm glad to have this 1 and a half years worth of sweet memories.

I LOVE YOU NG SUAT HOON <3 and mama kk ly bs wy cc thboy hl!!!

disintegrating

now i've come to realise the challenges of studying med.

it's the fact that you can never EVER study enough. After some gruelling lessons on physiology of the lung that require SO much digestion, I'm having the most mentally taxing PBL sessions twice a week where my PBL groupmates look to Level one or two evidence to complete their learning objectives. And that makes me the google and wikipedia-er wayyy more inferior. And I just spent 4 hours looking through medical journals to complete my learning objectives which were just epidemiology and risk factors for asthma. WTH???!!!!

i definitely need to redefine "diligence" and "efficiency" in my dictionary.

me me me me me me me me me

sometimes i just wished that i could pluck a hair out of my head, blow it and it'll turn into 100 more tzehui's.

cause I'm just SO bad at multitasking.

perfectly lonely

This epitomises how I feel right now, and the good news is I'm totally alright with it =)

wake me up when winter ends

although the average temp of HK during winter is around 10 degrees, it is already killing me.

I think i'm stuck with the choice of getting a heater or hibernating throughout Respiratory Block (we're doing resp and cardiovascular block this sem)

I think i'm getting a heater.