I want to.

hey guys.

2011-07-13T22:07:00.002+08:00

i've moved. Again!!!

from tumblr to wordpress. hopefully i'll stay put there, don't want to get too nomadic =)

you can now find me here.

feel free to drop by and say hi!

i want change.

2011-02-13T17:46:00.000+08:00

and therefore i'm moving.

this blog is generating too much traffic from the HKU/NUS MBBS interview post and I need more privacy XD

therefore i'm moving to a tumblr site.

The Happiness Project. (or so it will be named for the time being.)

you cant really post comments unless you have an account in tumblr but I guess that doesnt really matter =)

It's sad to say goodbye but a drastic change needs drastic measures... see you at the other end of the rainbow!

We laughed, we cried, and then we grew up.

2011-02-07T20:29:00.000+08:00

Despite the countless obstacles, our college gang finally met up, though the only-half-of-the-group-showed-up gathering only lasted barely 4 hours.

We went back to our old college and saw Mr Lau (maths), Mr Nava (physics AS sem 2), Mr Yeoh (physics A2) and we wanted to listen to Mr Lau's lecture but us barging into the class was simply too obvious ~~although I didn't mind doing it cause we already have a bad reputation in college~~

We ate at Inti Cafeteria. The nasi lemak was still RM 1 and spicy. We met a fake Lihyi who had almost the same haircut, same bell-sleeved shirt who brought her own lunch. We spotted some familiar faces; the lab assistant, our bio teacher's archenemy, and some lookalikes from our old days in college.

For a moment I felt alive again.

Where I lived in a world with my own rules. Where people's opinions about what I did, what I wore, what I said didn't matter anymore because I had a group of friends who accepted my loudness and lack of subtlety.

But living abroad (in fact leaving college) has given me enough lessons that the world can be evil, it can be pretentious, it can be selfish. In fact it's brimming with so much lies it's so hard to spot sheer honesty.

But I strongly believe that no matter how badly the world treats me, I will not turn into one of those backstabbing, hatred filled, self centred people, even if it hurts me.

I will keep on fighting, keep on falling, and keep on getting up.

Because I know that when I can take it no more, I'll have my true friends to hang on to.

Thank you for everything =)

i need a break.

2011-02-06T00:16:00.000+08:00

when will I start living for myself?

new year, new start.

2011-02-03T01:15:00.001+08:00

Happy CNY everyone!

crap i'll be spending only one week in malaysia, and the sad truth is i'll probably spend most of the time working on my caduceus (ed board) article or study the pile of lecture notes i brought back OR research on what possible SSMs I can do.

The SEATRU (turtle conservation project) was already fully booked when i tried to sign up today at midnight! (which was supposedly when the registration opened!! wthhhh) check out the website here:

http://seatru.wordpress.com/activities/volunteer-program/

I don't care. I will apply again next year. >.<

but anyway I have to think of something else to do for SSM then? anyone have any 2-4 weeks volunteering ideas around Malaysia or overseas?

Oh ya I just submitted my application for AIDS Awareness Raising Project 2011 in Henan. http://seatru.wordpress.com/activities/volunteer-program/

BUT i very well might not get it as I barely have any volunteering experience but oh well we'll see =)

exhausted! gonna sleep now and embrace the most comfy bed in the world <3

stuck...

2011-01-29T16:31:00.000+08:00

between

what i want and making people happy

blending in and having more time for myself

moving on and turning back

personal goals and to strive for a higher purpose

basically means

i'm stuck between

studying and not studying. the essence of a medical student's life.

thankfully i will be heading back msia soon! to be reminded of how it feels like to live a life outside hall, med campus and getting my head buried in food instead of Gray's or Robbins all the time >.<

missing you

2011-01-23T19:39:00.002+08:00

came across this image SH edited and slipped into my pen drive before she returned it to me right before I left to HK.

I never knew how much I actually enjoyed my college days until the time I went back msia during winter break. During those 2 weeks, I would laugh till I cried, shout till my voice turned hoarse and I wasn't being afraid of saying/doing the wrong thing. I could be myself and not worry about the implications it would bring because people around me were so REAL.

And though nothing can ever be the same, I'm glad to have this 1 and a half years worth of sweet memories.

I LOVE YOU NG SUAT HOON <3 and mama kk ly bs wy cc thboy hl!!!

disintegrating

2011-01-18T22:47:00.000+08:00

now i've come to realise the challenges of studying med.

it's the fact that you can never EVER study enough. After some gruelling lessons on physiology of the lung that require SO much digestion, I'm having the most mentally taxing PBL sessions twice a week where my PBL groupmates look to Level one or two evidence to complete their learning objectives. And that makes me the google and wikipedia-er wayyy more inferior. And I just spent 4 hours looking through medical journals to complete my learning objectives which were just epidemiology and risk factors for asthma. WTH???!!!!

i definitely need to redefine "diligence" and "efficiency" in my dictionary.

me me me me me me me me me

2011-01-13T18:10:00.000+08:00

sometimes i just wished that i could pluck a hair out of my head, blow it and it'll turn into 100 more tzehui's.

cause I'm just SO bad at multitasking.

perfectly lonely

2011-01-08T12:39:00.002+08:00

This epitomises how I feel right now, and the good news is I'm totally alright with it =)

wake me up when winter ends

2011-01-05T23:49:00.000+08:00

although the average temp of HK during winter is around 10 degrees, it is already killing me.

I think i'm stuck with the choice of getting a heater or hibernating throughout Respiratory Block (we're doing resp and cardiovascular block this sem)

I think i'm getting a heater.

Grateful

2010-12-31T12:30:00.001+08:00

Kite flying.

Not really sure why but I wanted to fly a kite for a really, really long time now. Probably to enjoy the wind in my face, the exhilaration of running against wind direction and the sense of completion.

Thanks guys, for putting a full stop and marking the end of something that was never even meant to start. Finally, I feel complete again =)

It'll be one month before I see Malaysia again. Thank God that's pretty soon =)

staring at square things

2010-12-28T21:01:00.000+08:00

Movies!

1. Tangled/Rapunzel
Watched it this afternoon with Suefay (whom I meet around once a year as our breaks coincide though we study at opposite sides of the hemisphere); the usual feel good disney production that was fun to watch! With hilarious comic reliefs too =)

2. The Social Network
Streamed this online and it's pretty interesting as it gives a true account of the founding of facebook (which is as essential for a human being who needs a social life) and it was pretty ironic cause my facebook site was on the other tab while I was watching the movie which indicates its importance in my life XD

3. Tron: The Legacy
Watched this with SH and CC and THboy simply cause we couldn't find other shows to watch and some of them watched Narnia already. The female actor's pretty cool but can't remember much from the movie; seems to be catered to the younger male audience though.

TV series!

Currently hooked on Fringe Season 1... The mystery just deepens with every episode and it's killling meeeee

Books!
finished reading Waiter Rant. Check out my post here.

But honestly still not enough time for friends and family and myself. Argghh I wished winter breaks were longer. I need TIME to chill before I face the world again. >.<

Happy Birthday...

2010-12-25T20:19:00.000+08:00

to Jesus!

who came 2010 years ago to let us come to know Him and to forgive our sins and to teach us how to live a fulfilling and purpose driven life =)

This day is not just about x'mas lights, trees or even presents.

It's a day where we rejoice, and be thankful. and to have hope in His second coming.

We are the Reason (他为了我们)

Enjoy and Merry X'mas!!! <3

Winter.

2010-12-20T14:31:00.000+08:00

So glad to have gotten out of HK just when the temperature dropped drastically; 2 days before I came back Malaysia, the temperature plunged from a comfortable 20 degrees to 8 degrees and I didn't have any down feather jacket and when I wore a pretty thin trench coat to go out, the hall receptionist asked, "哇你着甘少出街？" (you're just going to wear this jacket in this sort of weather?) so yeah, after that I changed into 2 layers of thin jackets because I didn't have one that was thick enough >.< another excuse to go shopping, right? XDD

And I will need to get a heater once I get back HK early next year. And also a thicker blanket because at the moment I'm stealing my roommate's as she went back early to Korea; lest I would wake up in the middle of the night shivering and listening to the wind howling outside the halls.

But mana tahu as I came back Msia to seek refuge from HK's winter, it has been raining for like 3 consecutive days, and it's the kind of rain that my mom calls "longevity rain" 长命雨 cause it rains at a constant pace for the whole day; not those short-lived downpours or the occassional drizzle. But still. A sign that we are slightly orientated on the upper hemisphere and therefore somewhat involved in this change in season =)

My plans for this 2 week long winter break:
Eat!!! (cut off ones means those that I've already eaten)
~~Nasi lemak,~~ Chee Cheong Fun, ~~roti canai,~~ ~~prawn mee~~, asam laksa, indian rojak, fruit rojak, popiah, bak kut teh, ~~bee hun kueh,~~ wan tan mee, curry mee, chicken rice, ~~duck noodles, pig trotter~~, karipap, apam balik...

Study!
yes, my classmates' kiasu-ness is getting to me. T.T but anyway I brought Robbin's Basis of Pathology back to study, and patho is my fav subject; I would NEVER read pharmacology or biochemistry at my own will. Ever.

Meet up with friends
But so far only met CC when she came to my house; SH and THboy still at their archi trip in Penang & Ipoh and I'm in desperate need of a social life T__T hopefully the college gang gathering will work out.. eventually...

Shopping!
with the excuse that stuff in Malaysia is cheaper than in HK! But my dad's gonna kill me soon, or worse still, freeze my bank account...

Karaoke
can NEVER get enough of it xDDD

Movies
the best deal for a movie in HK costs around RM 24; in Malaysia it's only 1/3 the price! WTH

Spend X'mas with family and church members
=)

and so far, I've only done a little of the shopping and the study. and the eating.

And now, back to studying! =) and waiting for SH and THboy to come back from their trip T_T

peace.

2010-12-18T23:12:00.001+08:00

am now defragmenting my emotional system at home.

will tell you when i'm done =)

done!

2010-12-15T02:38:00.000+08:00

=)

shopping tomorrow!!! kekekekeke

waiting.

2010-12-10T11:36:00.000+08:00

for exams to be over!

formative (not counted marks. at all) exam will be on 13th and 14th (next mon and tues) and then I'll be flying back Malaysia on Thurs.. yipeee!!!

But we had around 2 weeks plus worth of study break and yeah, it was long and excruciating. Names of arteries, nerves, veins, parasites, bacteria, fungi, virus, drugs flew out of my limbic system (controls memory) as fast as it flew in. And there's friggin community med!!! T__T

but then X'mas holidays are something really, really worth looking forward to. it's been soooo long since I've had a piece of roti canai in my mouth and I miss my college friends so so much. and besides, I think after exams, on 15th and 16th, Charlene and I might be going macao/shenzhen/shopping around hk!! FUN ^^

okay back to biochem.

double T_T

wrapping up 2010

2010-11-29T22:18:00.001+08:00

it's nearing december and I see christmas themes everywhere! which reminds me of home cause at least I get to celebrate X'mas back in Malaysia~~ and I just want to sum up how this year has been for me...

in the beginning of the year, I still couldn't let go the fact that all my college friends were going separate ways with everyone doing different courses etc.

At that moment in time, I was also frustrated as to what & where was I going to study. Flew to both HK and Singapore to attend medicine admission interviews, and honestly I was terribly lost at that time, and church friends and God really helped alot =)

From Jan-July, I worked in a nearby kindergarten as a helper, and developed a newfound interest and perspective in kids. Though it was my 2nd time working part time, I think it did help me mature as I took on a more "maternal" role in taking care of younger people instead of just being taken care of by my family.

Finally got letter of admission into HKU med and that made me really happy and my dad really sad cause he preferred if I went Spore. But then NUS offered me my 2nd choice, bioengineering. Anyway after weighing the odds, I finally decided to come HK.

Throughout Aug, I was busy packing, saying goodbyes, spending more time with my family, eating more Msian food, going through a period of emo-ness but thankfully saved by the presence of Suat Hoon and Teck Hong, and basically not thinking too much about HK.

and then HK was... hmm. Hard to explain. Our Malaysian seniors and freshmen were pretty much awesome and fun to hang out with, and the locals are pretty nice but need getting used to. In many different ways. The culture is different as well; eg hall culture, campaign, how you dress up etc.

and here I want to say how grateful I am to have Charlene. She's the only other Malaysia Medic year 1 friend + we stay in the same hall, so we basically go through the exact same thing in terms of culture shock, missing family and friends etc. and she was such a great friend once I got to know her really well... Thanks so much Charlene, I seriously could not survive HK without you T.T

and now am having study break till 12th Dec. Formative exam on 13th and 14th Dec and will be back Malaysia on the 17th (might go tour around HK and/or Macao on 16th and 17th with Charlene!!! weee~~~)

so pretty much anticipating meeting friends back in Malaysia and also for friggin exams to be over pronto! studying in my room is SO, SO boring, like A levels' one month study break once again >.<

having Hall Annual High Table Dinner tomorrow night! off to study now ~

always little

2010-11-21T20:08:00.001+08:00

Stumbled upon this James Morisson track:

Lyrics:

I was the one,
Who would always
Jump in first
Didn't think twice
To look behind
Got such a good feeling,
Just from playing
In the dirt
Once,
When I was little

We could build a rocket,
Fly to the moon
Leave Tuesday morning,
And be back for noon
There wasn't nothing,
Nothing that we couldn't do
Once, when I was little umm
Once, when I was little

Yeah I could dream more then
Yeah I believed more then
That the world
Could only get better
Yeah I was free more then
I could pretend more then
That this life could
Only show me good times
Once, when I was little
Umm ohh lalala

There was a time
When I trusted everyone
Yes I did
There was no place
That I would not go oh no
Spend a day on the hillside
Next to the holly mo
Oh once, when I was little
Yea once, when I, I was little

Yeah I could dream more then
Yeah I believe more then
That this world
Could only get better
Yeah I was free more then
I could pretend more then
That this life could
Only show me good times
Once, when I was little

Used to feel so strong
Even when they tell me,
Tell me I was wrong
That I can't live
In a magic world
Cause it's time
For me to grow up
That I got to be
Like the rest of them
When I know
There acting up ohh

I could believe more
Then yes I could
I could pretend more then
That this life could
Only get better
I could believe more
Then yes I could
I could pretend more then

That this world could
Only show me good times
Once, when I was little
When I was little

So here comes the next one,
The next in line
Stay as young you can,
For the longest time
Cause those days flew by
Like a breeze
Just passing through
Once, when I was little

I don't believe that the more one sees of the world, the harder one's heart becomes. I think it's always a matter of choice. We can choose to go with the flow and do whatever the world does, and grow up. Or we can be different, and stay young with a childlike fascination and think the best of people. There was a quote somewhere that said we have to be different, to make a difference in others.

I don't want to harden my heart. I still want to laugh at lame jokes, squeal at cute dogs, cry in soppy cheesy romance movies, sing on my way back to hall when I think no one's watching. I want to be a real, breathing human. Not molded by people around me, or by the pressures of studying medicine.

Wait on the Lord, be of good courage, and he shall strengthen
thine heart. Wait, I say on the Lord. - Psalms 27:14
We have a choice. I choose to be different. Just wait and see, things will change when you make the first step =)

pokchun

2010-11-13T14:09:00.001+08:00

Apparently there are 5 must-do things once you enter HKU:

Study (读书)
Get a bf/gf (拍拖)
Become an ExCo of a club/association (上莊)
Stay in hall/dorm (住 HALL)
Do part-time work (Part-time)

So far I've done 3 out of 5, and speaking of 上莊, we have something called "campaign" before you get to be Exco in any club (jong 莊)

Had my Caduceus campaign day 2 last night. Till morning. Friggin 6pm-5am! Including campaign day 1 plus mock campaign, it should be around 10 + 11 hours = 21 hours! *faints*

We were all dressed up in full suit, sitting there and being asked questions about anything related to Caduceus & the Medical Society.

anyway the purpose of the campaign is for people, specifically members of the Medical Faculty to understand the nature of Caduceus and also the vision and concept of the new "jong" members has for next year's (2011) Caduceus publications (by the way Cadu is the name of the Medical Society magazine; so basically I joined an editorial board)

besides, they're the one that pay membership fees every year and so they would like to find out how their money is spent (based on proposed financial budget) and also a prospective overview of what Caduceus will look like in the upcoming issues.

the purpose of the whole campaign is reasonable enough, unfortunately the hours are pretty physically taxing. For some other major jongs in HKU Student's Union, apparently theirs can go up to 40-50 hours! Hall ExCo too. So churr. (update: friend in Rotaract Club HKUSU told me it's 48 hrs with toilet and dinner break in the middle, otherwise it's continuous T.T)

complaints aside. it was pretty worth it. honestly. we knew more about our jong, about our direction in what we wanted to publish and it also served as a reminder that it's important to take sheung jong seriously, that it's just not a temporary passionate spark but a steady flame of dedication.

after pokchun-ing jong, have to go pokchun Causeway Bay now to collect some stuff and attend church.

and pokchun study tomorrow =)

sudah letih.

2010-11-07T23:41:00.000+08:00

i'm tired
of trying so hard to fit into somewhere that does not open its doors to me.
of keeping myself busy each day and telling myself that I had a fruitful day.
of waiting for thboy and sh to appear on fb chat and start accepting the fact that each of us have our own lives to live.
of hoping for something that does not exist.
of waiting.

I don't know what I'm looking for, but it feels like I'm waiting for something; probably a better tomorrow.

Oh well. Nothing to start off a monday with a good night's sleep.

=)

hou churr ah~~

2010-11-06T23:38:00.000+08:00

Been pretty busy lately with non-academic related stuff, eg shopping for boots and winter clothing, preparing for Caduceus (Faculty Editorial Board) campaign, watching a movie @ cyberport etc, watching interhall football match and hall activities etc.

Churr.

I'm supposed to be catching up on the week's lecture now but out of boredom (cause I'm not sure if you're interested) let me just share some Hong Kong slang/terms =)

劲 geng - can be used as a substitute for 好(hou) 非常 (fei sheung); eg 劲肚饿 (geng tou ngor) very hungry
撻皮 (tat pei) - lazy
hea - lazy
出 pool - start dating someone
入 pool - just turned single (eg enter the pool of single people)
churr - busy
So - sorry
su 唔 su - sure or not
au - obtain, extract (like stealing, in a jokingly way)
劲过 (geng guo) - CGPA over 3
搏丁 (bok ding) - trying to score distinction (studying really hard for exams)
潜 li (cheem li) - study in the library all day
抽书 (chau xu) - like if people chau your xu, means they ask you questions from the lectures, like see how much you already know/studied
搏尽 (bok chun) - very "bok", either in studies or CCAs
浮 (fao) - opposite of cheem, like if you're very "fao" in hall means you simply join lots and lots of activities
上莊 (sheung jong) - become Executive Committee of a club. "jong" culture is really strong here as in they'll be harsh in some way before you get to be Exco, for certain hall and student's union "jong".
过 O (guo O) - go through hall/floor orientation

can only think of this much at the moment! Gonna go cheem now!!! >.<

halloween!!

2010-11-02T21:42:00.000+08:00

Went to halloween @ Lan Kwai Fong with fellow Malaysians! The crowd had awesome costumes and there were plenty of cross-dressers around too =)

although it was jam-packed with people but it was definitely worth it! Thanks to our Malaysian seniors who brought us there and took so good care of us~

A bit lazy to blog much this week.. sometimes facebook says too much about me than my blog does! >.<

reflections

2010-10-25T20:47:00.000+08:00

some people in life are irreplaceable. no matter how hard we try to find similarities in friends we enjoy being with, each and every person has qualities unique and specific (omg sounds so enzyme-ish) to that person only. Be with people you are comfortable being with, instead of simply trying to fit in. It will be just sad and emotionally taxing. and those who mean most to you, keep them close to heart because, they'll always be there for you; if only you remembered to ask. Just a few days ago I was msn-ing with mama and we were saying that college gang were the BEST, most sincere and genuine group of friends we've ever met and got the privilege to know. We can't go back to our a level days, but it's just great to know that in this big wide scary world that there are friends you can count on, even with everyone busy with their own schedule. <3 u guys forever~~~

no matter how grown up we get, family matters the most. their unfailing love, their meticulous care for even the simplest things will never change with the passing of time. they're the ultimate consultant, your most trusted friend, you shelter in a storm. love them, because no one else will do the exact same to you. besides, you owe them one =) my parents came to visit me last weekend in HK, and I brought them around to eat and to Ocean Park as well. So proud when mom said she was glad that I was ok and am more independent! It was great meeting them and having the feeling of being taken care of again nevertheless =)

there are tons of people worse than you, but heaps of people better than you too, in all different aspects. Failure makes people stronger. We learn through failures. If you don't fail, you'll never know, and never appreciate the feeling of success. What do we learn, exactly? Firstly, we learn to accept the truth. Secondly, we consider what went wrong. Then we learn to let go, let go of that sense of insecurity that we're not good enough. In fact, we're never good enough. We can only get better, but best is still really, really far away. We win because of luck, because of effort and sometimes because of skill. But we lose because even though we're good, there are tons of people better than you. Heck, for all you know, they might've failed EVEN more than you! Try more, fail more, learn more. and then, try again!! you have no idea how many interviews and auditions I've failed since coming HKU. I didn't make it into HKU Debate, Student Ambassador and Medical Outreachers ExCo. But still, I learned a lot through the preparations involved, and also learning to accept failure too. Of COURSE it feels disheartening but sometimes we just need reminders that we're worth more than our failures. We are defined by who we are and what we want to be, with respect to ourselves and others. WE ARE AWESOME hahaha

doing small things for others can bring you further than you expect. I was so glad when I saw Amanda's post on her blog =) chocolate can do miracles, really! and we celebrated my roommate's bday last night after 12 midnight... It definitely felt good to make someone's day! Therefore do not be bitchy because some days its effects may just rebound on YOU XD

Okay no idea where this post came from.. probably accumulated in my twisted system but ANYWAY congratulations for making it this far!! hope my sharing helped in some way ^^

what's wrong with meeeee

2010-10-16T21:51:00.000+08:00

today I had the whole afternoon + night free but apparently my mood just isn't willing to cooperate.

another day goes by with me ignoring that growing mass of lecture notes while i aimlessly stalk people on facebook, meanwhile moping that MBBS has no reading week thus no going back malaysia thus no malaysian friends + family + FOOD.

argghhh the overwhelming sadness.

no wonder I can't study.

okay, back to stalking =))))

encounters

2010-10-11T00:29:00.000+08:00

just learned today that it's far more interesting to explore uncharted land with a physical map in hand and boon tung sui 半桶水 (half a bucket full; means not very well versed) cantonese, because you really might not know what you'll stumble upon.

After attending a baptist church in SoHo, Central, I decided to drop by a 2nd hand bookstore that I googled last night.

Flow Bookstore

1/F No.40 Lyndhurst Terrace, Central,

Hong Kong Island, Hong Kong, 852

and the cute thing is, they installed those classic bells that will clinker as you open the door! and the feeling of being surrounded by books that are shelved up to 6 foot high is just SO overwhelming. too bad I'm just so inconsistent when it comes to reading.

I did pick up a few books anyway (who wouldn't?) they have some really new collections like The Story of Edgar Sawtelle, those Twilight books & quite a few from Paulo Coelho. Books that I got:

1. Waiter Rant: Behind the scenes of eating out by A. Waiter (seriously???)

I used to read his blog and his anecdotes as his life as a waiter is pretty interesting! Bought it for $68 (around RM 30)

2. Better: A Surgeon's Notes on Performance by Atul Gawande

It was one of our recommended reading for medical humanities. I tried to borrow it from the library but it was already taken, so bought it at $58 (RM 26)

3. Mister Pip by Lloyd Jones

it's supposedly about a teacher in a tiny school, so I sort of took interest in it after my kindergarten job =) $43 (RM 19)

another random thing, I (finally!) stumbled upon a TVB artiste on my way to the bookstore! I was already on Lyndhurst Terrace (check address above) but I couldn't find number 40, so I walked into the nearest store just to ask for directions.

It was a store selling organic products, and as I entered, the woman at the counter frantically turned and that was the moment I realise she was...邵美琪 (Maggie Shiu).

Actually I didn't know her name at that time, but she really did look nervous. Probably nervous of being identified, so I simply walked up to the cashier to ask directions to 40 Lyndhurst Terrace. In ENGLISH. To eliminate chances of me actually watching TVB dramas.

The cashier guy said he would direct me to the location later, and the artiste who thought I didn't know she was an artiste was really nice, cause I think she thought I was a tourist too (which I technically am, just a long term one =.=) and she even apologized to me! For keeping me waiting for the guy to finish putting the stuff that she bought into the plastic bag...

But anyway I guess I did the right thing not to "identify" her, cause being constantly under surveillance and being criticized for every move is very, very scary. And anyway at that time I still hadn't figured out her name. yet, so it would be a little embarrassing too >.< I didn't want to take a picture with her at that time cause it felt really odd. She wasn't promoting anything, plus she was doing grocery shopping. It just felt like I was taking advantage of her simply being there to gain a certain extent of fame. proof that I REALLY did see her.

now I just hope that she left the shop thinking, "phew, at last. someone who doesn't know too much about me."

Busy holidays

2010-10-04T13:14:00.000+08:00

Did my 1st community service on Saturday! Went to Tsuen Wan Plaza (around 45 mins journey by MTR + bus) for the Health Exhibition that offered free health checks for the public. Conducted tests like checking their blood pressure, BMI & some lung capacity tests. Thanks mom for helping me practice with the bp kit back in Malaysia =)

Charlene: I want to hear your hearbeat

Tze hui: Do you trust my skills???

Dinner =)

Plus celebrated my first birthday not in Malaysia...

Cute pencil case + badminton grip from Charlene, Anthony n Alex!!! So thoughtful of them ~~ <3

Frozen Yoghurt with Sook Voon, Charlene, Alex n Anthony~

with Charlene~~

bday cake from my dearest roommie!!! love u Jung Soo =)

Jung Soo

Cute hamster plush toy from Amanda the master cum senior.. haha =) it sleeps next to me now

but still dead dead tired from everything!! and I have class till 4 later.

Crap.

pics

2010-10-01T22:29:00.001+08:00

what's good about HK is its abundance of dessert shops!! yum =)

in mongkok

cute dog outside Flora Ho Sports Centre

i tried to order something as close as i could get to char koay teow, and it tasted quite similar but just not there yet... crap now i miss malaysian food more and more.. someone please ship some over to me T.T

arggh

2010-09-28T23:34:00.002+08:00

i think i've studied for around 4-5 hours today.

OMG i don't think i've ever been so hardworking in my life, in a non-exam period!

i'm getting scarier by the second.

i don't want to forget.

2010-09-20T23:04:00.001+08:00

i think i learned from some random movie that goldfish have memory that lasts for 30 seconds, and that's why they can swim so tirelessly in their aquarium for so long. cause they keep thinking that the other side of the tank is unexplored territory.

obviously if humans were to suffer the same fate, medical students would NEVER graduate med school! haha =) and i guess emotions (the good AND the bad) would be less rampant. we'll hate less, but we'll love less too.

am thankful that although i dont remember lectures as well i hope to, but i do remember why I'm here, and what keeps me going on.

i have to say this out loud.

i'm here because this is how I want to change people's lives. me coming to HKU for medicine is already God's blessing (although I didn't get scholarship hahaa but one shouldn't be too greedy) and i should use this opportunity to learn more, experience more and most importantly learn how to share. i've come here to be an efficient student, not a studying machine. i'm here to gain well rounded education but not get too carried away with social activities. i'm here because this is how i want to live the rest of my life. to me, a life lived solely for one's indulgences brings no meaning. i might as well just live on an island with unlimited supply of food and entertainment and just die alone.

the fact that i know that people care for me keeps me going on. facebook chat and msn sessions with the 2 busiest people in my college group (SH and THboy) cures my friendsickness pangs and reminds me that true friends are rare but ever so long lasting.

and I thank God for being able to remember. Memories are such a lifesaver (besides during exams of course XD)

now, moving on to gluconeogenesis...

lost.

2010-09-16T17:07:00.001+08:00

When I used to teach the primary 1 & 2 kids in daycare, the kindy principal would sometimes come to help me out (actually most of the times T.T). once, when she came in, the kids' tables were in a mess cause I asked them to take out all their homework.

she said that if the table's in a mess, their minds and thoughts would be in a confused state too, like lacking direction and objective. so if i want them to focus, the table has to be organised, too.

as i type away, my arms can barely move more than 10 inches horizontally cause there are just stacks of things around me; books that i barely even read, girly vanity stuff (actually just a mirror =.=) all in 2 clutters (each on one side of the laptop)

its been almost 2 weeks since classes started, and i am still lost. we have an average of 2 lectures per day and i have revised around 50% of them... but it's so unlike me already! (cause i don't really revise until quite last minute XD)

am supposed to be reading up my common core stuff right now. and tidy up my table later.

omg this post is SO not inspiring. I need to get back that spark in my life!!!

2010-09-07T20:43:00.000+08:00

today i saw a video on a community project whereby HKU and CUHK students visited the elderly.

and i cried thinking of my grandparents back in malaysia.

they said they would wait for me to graduate and come back, but it'll be 6 friggin years.

whenever i help an elderly, i'll think of them, hoping they know that i'm also doing it for them.

ah kong ah ma, i'll never ever forget you guys.

wait for me.

please, please, please wait for me.

hello

2010-09-01T13:36:00.000+08:00

... from hong kong.

It's already been a week since I stepped onto foreign land & today was our 1st day of faculty orientation. It ends tomorrow, and classes start on friday (and some people are already planning to borrow books from the library wth)

Our class has a variety of students, ranging from 18 yr olds who got in through EAS Early Admissions Scheme (straight from HK secondary school) and some 20+ non-Jupas who've already gotten a degree (some from Cambridge & Carnegie Mellon WTH x 2)

Throughout the week, I constantly went on shopping sprees, though the definition of "cheap" in HK is so so much different. Branded goods are everywhere and people are on a frantic quest to conquer designer labels even though they're extremely pricey (like a dress that costs like 300 HKD AFTER discount...) that's probably around RM 100+ and they think that's cheap. T.T

You could probably say that everything around HK is expensive, ranging from food (minimum RM 4.50, and that's like the cheapest food on campus), transportation, fashion etc. Been spending the last few days with malaysians, getting stuff, settling down, signing up for a HK number, buying a new laptop, new shoes etc. In fact I didn't even bring my camera around since it sort of became a really touristy thing to do and I'll be here for at least the next 6 years so I don't think I'll be missing much XD

my roomie's a korean! and a hot one too for that matter =) in fact almost all other international students' roommates are korean cause they're 60+ full time 1st yr undergraduates this time around.. and they're only like 25 malaysian freshmen... sad sad case T.T

but we did have merdeka gathering last night! to meet up with the new and old msians in hong kong... no pics la sorry that's why this post is damn wordy XD

and oh ya I think one week's worth of conversing in cantonese paid off! Some were surprised when I told them I wasnt local.. so that's a good sign kekeke

more updates soon!! ~~ <3

all i want to say now is..

2010-08-23T21:58:00.001+08:00

thank you.

to

suat hoon & teck hong, who have been there so so so so many countless times when I needed you guys, and spending SO much time with me when you guys could be completing your crazy workload and assignments. It really means a lot to me, more than anything words can express. Really. OMG I LOVE YOU GUYS SO SO MUCH T.T T.T

qiuhong and ern chean and chi en and a whole long list of church friends, who have been so so caring and prayed for me countless times and also doing tonnes of stuff to help me settle down in HK.. and for making a home visitation and praying for me too! <3

mom & dad for simply understanding and letting go! I know it must have been really, really hard =(

ah kong ah ma for giving me a packet of HACKS sweets just in case I had sore throat, and reminding me to study hard so I won't be wasting mom and dad's money T.T

sis for coming back from Spore to spend quality time with me. although i did use that weekend to see college and church friends too *guilty*

mama ly bs wy kk cc hl for the farewell card! and for everything else for the past 2 years~~ <3

yenwoon for recording the childhood medley with me and fulfilling one of my wishes before HK

mei jee for simply stopping by my house to say goodbye

chee ling and sin yee and kai han for meeting up for a cuppa

and of course,

to God, who made it all happen. I feel so blessed right now.

oh noooooooooo

2010-08-20T10:08:00.001+08:00

time's almost up.

Now I'm busy
1. transferring 27.4GB worth of photos and videos (96% of them are college mates-related)
2. finishing Eat Pray Love by Elizabeth Gilbert
3. planning final meet-ups with friends
4. trying to spend more time with parents and grandparents
5. excited over HK end of summer sales *guilty*
6. being just plain emo.

nearly cried over what sh said over the phone yesterday.

*clears throat*

Gotta keep myself together.

Glad!

2010-08-17T16:35:00.000+08:00

Celebrated teckhong's b'day 2 days ago in Sunway Pyramid. I was the one who planned most of it, and finally the one who got tricked!!!! by mama who told me she was coming back the following weekend T.T so so shocked to suddenly see her emerge from the bottom of the table! the conversation went something like this:-

kaykay: tze hui, when is mama coming back msia again? (she's studying in NUS now)
me: she told me the coming weekend lo...
*suddenly passes her phone to me, with mama on the line*
mama: tze hui!! where are you guys now?
me: at kim gary, sunway lo, why?
mama: i'm also there le!!
me: don't lansok (aka try to say that we have something in common) with me can or not...
mama: *emerges from the bottom of the table* i told you i'm at kim gary what..!!
me: *SHOCKED and grabs beeshuang by the shoulder*

but it was such a glad, glad glad reunion. Thanks mama for coming since you won't be able to make it next weekend which will be officially the last time I see the rest of you guys T.T

what we do.. all the time. now we can't do it face to face, msn does the job XD

b'day cake baked by me + suathoon + chaicheen! Chocolate tempation; recipe given by mama (check it out below)

full attendance!!! and thanks so much for the farewell card.. i NEARLY got emo but stopped myself just in time.. told myself its too early its too early XD
and sis came back from singapore also to see me one last time before I leave for HK.. So blessed to have all of you.. really!!! xoxoxoxoxo <3
Chocolate Temptation
A:
20g chocolate emulco

50g cocoa powder

50g hot water

250g butter

270g castor sugar

2g salt

240g (4nos) egg

250g superfine flour

6g (1tsp) baking powder

2g (1/2 tsp) sodium bicarbonate

Choc ganache

150g dairy whipped cream

150g cooking choc

25g butter

25g glucose syrup

Combine A and mix well.
Beat B until light and fluffy. Add C one at a time and mix well until smooth.
Add A to the mixture and blend to form smooth batter.
Add sieved ingredients D.
Pour batter into 9 inch cake tin (I used 8 inch but it's still ok) . Bake at 180 C 40-45mins. (however, my cake had a HUGE crack on the top after 45 mins and the inside was still quite wet! so my friend suggested I put an aluminum foil on the top throughout the whole process to prevent uneven baking)
Cut the cake into 3 layers and spread the ganache on each layer, and also throughout the exterior of the cake.

Okay!! Gotta go sort things out. Pronto =)

p.s. currently reading Eat Pray Love by Elizabeth Gilbert. final read before HK?

hahaha

2010-08-13T18:07:00.000+08:00

today i met up with suathoon and teckhong @ taylors.

and i laughed till i teared and my tummy hurt over some lame joke of asking them to design a jacuzzi that could double up as a steamboat.

am so glad that although people grow old, move apart, lead separate lives, some things in life just don't change.

=)

random emo-ness

2010-08-12T22:33:00.000+08:00

oh crap.

2010-08-11T10:19:00.002+08:00

'm starting to get the jitters.

did another collage on college mates that i'll develop and probably bring to hk to curb friendsickness T.T

okay teckhong gets the biggest chunk cause that's the nicest pic of us together and our faces are far apart so. that is THE honest answer hehe... XD

oh ya a video on the hall i will be staying in HKU. (RC Lee)

What I have been up to lately XD

2010-08-07T20:25:00.000+08:00

Cover via Amazon

Movies movies movies! So long since I've written any reviews o.O

1. Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind
This was pretty awesome! Joel (Jim Carrey--who plays a collected and contemplative character, unlike his roles in other movies) falls in love with Clementine (Kate Winslet--who already lost a lot of weight since Titanic o.O), who is this very impulsive, live-for-the-moment kind of girl. The initial excitement in their relationship finally wears off and Clementine's strong character takes its toll. One day, Joel finds himself talking to Clementine, but she cannot remembers who he is anymore. He eventually finds out there's a company, Lacuna, that specialises in erasing people's unwanted memories. Obviously Clementine had her memory of Joel erased to rid herself of the heartache of them arguing all the time and this was the easiest way out. Soon, Joel, who was heartbroken, decided to undergo the procedure as well and we are brought into Joel's memories and see how they were removed, one by one. Finally, though, Joel backed off halfway through and tried to resist having his memory erased and we see how the truth helped both of them get back on their feet again.

I guess the movie really brings us the message of the importance of memories. How it may bring us pain, but at the same time they shape who were are today. And erasing part of our memory may mean losing part of ourselves too.

2. Toy Story 3
It was rated pretty high in rottentomatoes.com, but I felt it was just okay. I felt that Up was better (I loved the black and white scene at the start; so nostalgic haha) Andy has finally outgrown playing his toys and decides to send them to the attic (and only bring Woody to college.. if it were me I wouldn't even have thought of them actually T.T) but the mom mistakenly brings them to the garbage man and finally they ALL end up in a daycare. There's this evil bear that tricks them to another room in the daycare in which all of the toys end up being physically "toyed" around by kids that don't know how to handle them properly. And finally all of them end up in good hands (a cute girl from the daycare) and the evil bear gets stuck in the front of the garbage truck as decoration XD I think the only part which I laughed out loud was when the Barbie dressed up as Ken and talked to the bookworm and the bookworm discovered that "Ken" was wearing heels which was supposed to give away Barbie, but he simply scoffed (like Ken actually cross-dresses all the time!! haha) Besides that it was just okay.

3. Iron Man
Robert Downey Jr. is HOT!!! For someone his age la. The ironman suit is definitely yeng3! haha =) It was sort of transformer-ish minus Megan Fox but an entertaining movie (yes I haven't watched IM 2. Yet.)

4. Dear John
Quite a soppy Nicholas Sparks adapted movie. If you liked The Notebook, you'll probably enjoy this one too. About a soldier (a hot, expressionless hunk played by Channing Tatum) who meets a girl (lively & humanitarian-type female by Amanda Seyfried; I still can't get over the impression that she's bimbotic ever since I watched Mean Girls! remember that she can predict the weather simply by touching her boobs?? haha) during summer break and they fall in love, but as soon as summer ends, he has to go back and finish 1 or 2 more years of service before he can finally come back and the girl has to go back to college as well. They keep in touch by writing letters to each other (hence the movie title, Dear John) but eventually the girl, tied down by social obligation (she didn't tell John that), decides to marry another guy and John is heartbroken. After many years, they meet again. They are still in love with each other but the timing was all wrong and.. I can't really remember the ending actually XD! But you can watch the movie to kill time la haha

6. Inception
Leonardo Dicaprio's acting skills seem to have gotten better and better throughout the years! So different from his boyish charm in Titanic; now he's like a veteran in the silver screens or something (I like him almost as much as Johnny Depp now. Just almost.) Undoubtedly I felt this was one of the better movies in this year and despite being a little lengthy at parts, it was a fascinating ride! I liked the part when the roads sort of folded into a box so they walked vertically too... No need to give a synopsis for this movie la, it's a MUST watch!! haha =)

7. Ip Man 1 & 2
Not overrated at all! Impressive kung fu scenes and actually got me interested in Ip Man (it was only thru the movie that I discovered that he was Bruce Lee's sifu T.T) and my ex colleagues even got me a biography on Ip Man! Finally it all boils down to the fact that we like to see chinese kung fu help in fighting society's evil and the influence of western culture =)

i believe

2010-08-04T21:22:00.000+08:00

in eternity. in forever-afters.

In some random conversation yesterday, a friend mentioned that she didn't want to get married, but would like to experience a relationship.

But to me, being in love is not like an inventory in the "things to do before you die" list. Nowadays people change bfs/gfs almost at the same rate of changing their handphones (unless you have an iPhone I think, because then it would be pretty pricey XD) They fall in love, date, lose the feeling, call it quits, change fb status to "single", emo for a couple of months and look for someone new.

There's nothing wrong with the sequence, but won't it get a little tiring once repeated one too many times? Suddenly it loses its value of being precious and hard to find.

Call me idealistic, call me old school, but I believe that love is not a game. It's not something you can just take and put down that easily. I believe that one day, you will find someone that shares your faith, appreciates you for who you are and gets brutally honest with you all the time. Don't believe me? Watch 500 days of summer! Superb superb movie =)

I also believe, that no matter how many friends you have (in real life or in facebook! haha), it's truly truly important to have friends that will be there for you. On msn, on facebook chat, on the phone, in person. There are the ones that will last for life. No expiry date, and non-disposable ones. My favourites.

Thanks for being there when I needed you guys. And you know who you are. This one's for you <3

countdown to a new beginning

2010-08-03T22:30:00.000+08:00

just booked my flight to hk. Aug 25th @ 7am by AirAsia.

22 more days to go!

=).

o.O

T.T

???

just feeling a teeeeeeensy unprepared.

if today was your last day

2010-07-31T18:19:00.002+08:00

Yesterday was my last day working. After labouring/running around chasing kids/putting ointment for mosquito bites/hug them/carry them/eat imaginary food cooked by them, 7 months passed by as if it was just a month.

Lesson learned?

Teaching kids is not easy. In fact, teaching is not easy, because moulding one's thinking is always never risk-free. (think inception!)

Daycare (Std 1 & 2) was tiring, made me feel like a grumpy old teacher (you have to keep asking kids to take out their homework, finish their homework, don't play first, etc etc). To teach 6 yr olds, you would have to have a really really loud voice (so that your voice won't be drowned by theirs! seriously) and good general knowledge because they will "why?" you all the time o.O 5 year olds are alright but the boys.. will have just started fighting like boys and some of them will end ugly, either with cuts/bruises.. one boy even had his elbow dislocated because another boy climbed on him like a horse!!! 4 year olds.. ahh the bliss. Hug them all you want before they grow into 5 year old maniacal devils! haha =)

Oh ya a video recorded right before I left... The only time I almost cried yesterday! XD

Undergoing decomposition

2010-07-28T18:48:00.002+08:00

I. Am. So. Bored.

2 more days to my last day at work & I'm already feeling pangs of boredom + aimlessness + lack of social life.

How will I survive the coming month before uni starts???

Please get me something to do.

我与基督的旅程 My Journey with God

2010-07-24T20:04:00.001+08:00

I drafted this a long long time ago but anyway feel like sharing now =) since I've never had the guts to share the good news with my friends o.O (p.s. sorry there's no English version.. it sounds.. odd ^^)

我不是出生在一个信主的家庭里。我家人算是道教，可是没有说很虔诚的信徒，家外面有一个神台，厨房里一个神台，多数都是我的公公点香，一天两次，有时会听到他拜拜时会说 "祖宗保佑，芝慧身体健康，考试顺顺利利。。。"

以前，填表格时就填"Buddhist"，因为我家人的宗教，间接成了我的宗教。我不知道自己信什么，我只知道，只要把考试考好，功课做好，听从父母的话，父母就会开心，我也会心安。

很奇妙的，我从小到大最要好的朋友都是基督徒，可能是上帝的默示我未来即将进入他的国度吧! 不过，我真正接触到福音是在我高一的时候。

一开始，我觉得难以接受。那位朋友告诉我，唯有通过耶稣基督，我才能得永生。唯有通过耶稣基督，我才不会死了后永远在地狱里受苦。那么，我即使一生行善，若没有信靠主耶稣，我也一样进地狱了吗? 那岂不是很不公平?

除此之外，她也告诉我，圣经是上帝要告诉人类的话。我那时在想，圣经也是人写的啊，他们怎么会知道上帝要说什么? 那些写圣经的人不会写错吗?

可是，我觉得基督教回答了我对人生最大的疑问:我们存在的目的到底是什么? 是为了金钱，权势，爱情，还是名利? 如果我考试得了第一名，毕业了，赚回来的月薪可以买一辆小车，之后结婚生子，孩子们都进入剑桥或牛津，生活安枕无忧，那我在临死之前会有什么感受? 把一生献给忙碌的生活，给儿女的前程，最终还是要面对死亡，而我努力的一切都不能从这世上带走。闭上了眼睛，一切将化为虚有。

养了儿女，他们会自己成家立业。赚了一大笔钱，终有一天会花完，或给别人花完。得到的权势，迟早会被后辈追上，被代替，被遗忘。世上所拥有的一切会改变，唯有耶稣基督的爱，的存在永不改变。他在我们婴孩时就开始看顾我们，在我们生活的每一刻永不离开我们，直到我们回归天家。这是让我感到很安慰的，因为我知道我生命里的每一件事，好的或不好的，都有上帝的应许。他没有答应说我们身为基督徒的生活会很平安顺利，但他答应会时时刻刻与我们同在。

就在那年的年尾，我参加了一个福音营，并在那时信了耶稣。不过，坦白说，我之后因为考试即将来临和家长希望我专注学业的缘故，我很少来教会。简单来说，就是单单表面上的基督徒而已。我的生活方式与以往没有不同，还是会追求物质与兴趣上的满足。上帝没有在我生命中排第一。

我中学毕业后，到college念A Levels，在这段期间，我那位基督徒朋友不断地鼓励我来教会，不过我常常以各种理由推辞。我不敢全心全意投入在教会里，因为我已经对教会感到很陌生，上帝好像与我无关。

之后，我发觉我对我的未来感到很无助以及遥不可及。我不知道我未来的取向，我也对我自己想要的未来完全没有概念。感谢主，那时候那位姐妹又再次邀请我来教会，我也开始踊跃参与了。通过上帝的话语，我觉得我真的得到了安慰。我了解到了上帝掌管一切，而且也计划了每个人的未来，只要把一切交托于他的手中，我们不需要惧怕或担忧。在唱诗歌崇拜时，我都常常会被圣灵感动，觉得上帝无比的美好，只好憋着眼泪把诗歌唱完。

所以，我感恩。我放弃过上帝，但上帝没有放弃过我。现在，我又再次背起十字架，希望一天比一天都能活出主耶稣的样式。愿主与你们同在。阿门。

This one deserves a standing O =)

2010-07-23T20:25:00.002+08:00

2 more weeks left.

2010-07-17T11:25:00.000+08:00

My HK student visa just came by courier a few days back, and suddenly it all seems so real.

Though I can't say my 7 months' worth of work in kindergarten was without incidents pissing me off/me pissing kids off (haha!) but it definitely made me love kids so much more.

5 yr old Yi Hen and her younger sister, Ci En, 3.

2 more weeks left. To another ending.

I guess love comes in many forms, so I'll used what's left to love them even more. =)

omg yi shuen made a "love cake"! so sweet =)

I wished...

2010-07-14T20:02:00.000+08:00

I was busier

and then

it would be easier

to let go

of whatever was left.

thank you for a day's happiness

and I will thank you for the ultimate decision at a later date

I'll be lying by saying it didn't hurt

because I was so unprepared.

But I understand, cause besides the feeling

everything else was wrong.

But still

Thank you =)

Friggin' 54 km?!

2010-07-10T20:07:00.000+08:00

Gone but never forgotten

2010-07-08T22:15:00.000+08:00

When 150cm meets 167cm (twisted version)

Dear Mama,

Honestly I tried lots and lots of ways of starting this. Every single time, I start all over again, because my feelings are truly, truly indescribable.

You are a special friend. From your curious antics of eating the interior of a fishball before finishing off the skin, to your trademark burp which comes in the oddest moments in class, you are a person, so different yet one that we can find so much in common with.

Our friendship grew, day by day, as we used to wait for the minibus heading to the train station together. Sometimes, we would walk from college to subang KTM station, but everyday was an enjoyable one despite the burning sun. Along the way, we stumbled, and often more than not, made fools of ourselves.

But that doesn't matter. At all. I don't regret any single day spent at college, spent with you and our classmates. Because it taught me how to accept myself for exactly who I am; not a taller, less pimple-ridden, slimmer version. Just tzehui and nothing more.

Tragedy hit you hard in the face, and we've seen you struggle emotionally but we were so helpless at the sidelines. Sometimes during outings you have to leave early to deal with your family issues. We saw your heart break, get fixed up, then break again. You grew stronger each time you fell down. But no matter what happened, you never, ever put on a sulky face in class. So every lesson was not just a joy for you, but also fun for the rest of us.

So thank you, mama.

For giving us everything and asking nothing in return.
For so often lending an ear and listening to my incessant rantings.
For your infectious laughter and funny metaphors and seeing lookalikes everywhere we go
For helping me organise gatherings even if you weren't attending them!
For completing my sentences or saying the same thing simultaneously
For bringing so much joy, laughter and warmth into our lives.

Thank you for being there when I needed you, and wishing you all the best in your studies in Spore! MSN and Skype ALL THE TIME kay?

Love you forever & ever & ever~~~

XOXO,
tzehui

All mixed up

2010-07-04T20:52:00.000+08:00

Ja An, Yi Hen, Yi Shuen & Ci En observing intently as the tadpole-turned frog is released into the drain

Somehow as each day draws to an end, I become afraid. The thought of being further away from what used to bring me so so so much happiness is draining the life out of me T.T

2 months from now, I will no longer see 4 yr olds stumbling out of balance every few steps across the classroom. Their shy, toothy smile or them saying "I love you" oh so generously to friends and teachers they truly love.

I can't go lepak-ing with college friends anymore. And stand around again in a circle asking each other what we want to have for lunch and not find any conclusion half an hour later (unless kaykay's around!! haha)

I'll miss the short yet wonderful time I spent in Klang Presbyterian Church. This was where I found my faith and built my relationship with God. Thankfully this is something I can continue in HK!! But having church friends really made me feel that I am not alone in overcoming worldly tempations =)

I can't play poker with my grandparents anymore or joke around with them. Or listen to my grandma tell the story of my birth for the 11239827958274th time. Or eat their delicious sambal or help them with groceries during marketing :(

But I guess if I don't let go, I'll never grow up. Trust me, not being able to grow up vertically is painful enough XD

See! Even my 13 yr old cousin is so so so much taller than me T.T

p.s. can u spot me? 13 years ago XD

Learning from kids

2010-06-28T21:48:00.001+08:00

Ying Hui, my Std 1 daycare student. The 吃软不吃硬 type (threats will make her even more rebellious). Her weakness--her vanity. XD

#1 Say what you mean & mean what you say. And with that I mean every single word! Don't count on them losing out on the details/forgetting because, honestly their memory are wayyyy better than elephants.

Jian Yang, Std 1 afternoon daycare student. Same type as Ying Hui. Scolding him is not worth the try =)

#2 Shouting or scolding them out of frustration will only bring devastating consequences. Nowadays kids are pretty much capable of independent thinking. Autonomy doesn't work around here anymore! The more you tell them not to, the more they are tempted to do so. Rebellion is in their blood.

Mr Ho Li Xian, 4 yr old kindy student. Extremely inquisitive and occasionally naughty. Bright but sometimes agonized but we're totally in love with each other =)

#3 Praising them is the way to go! For my 4 yr olds, to get them to drink water, all I have to do is praise those who have finished drinking from their water bottles. I'll be like 哇，你的脸好滑哦! (wahh, your face is sooo smooth!!!) Then everyone else will grab their bottles and guzzle down as much as they can. One girl even kept checking the smoothness of her face while she was still drinking =)

Yan Zhen, 4 yr old kindy student. Sweet gal, unlike her clone Tiffany Foo ^^ but honestly I'm not that dark!! She's just way too fair and there MUST be something wrong with the lighting *in denial*

#4 Don't treat them like kids. Literally. Their problems with friends, schoolwork etc may seem trivial to us adults, but it means EVERYTHING to them (this applies more to those kids in Std 1& above). Eg there may be a dispute between two kids and we adults will simply shake it off, like "it's nothing la. Why are you guys fighting over such a small matter?" The more you ignore their problems, the more they keep it inside of them. Some of them just end up being emo the whole morning and won't be willing to do their work, which is bad for them in the long run, too.

Anyhow, in these 6 months they've definitely taught me much! about how adults are not much different than kids. We're just bigger, that's all (in my case, not much of a size difference T.T)

Confused

2010-06-26T20:56:00.000+08:00

Not in a mood for blogging right now. In the meantime, enjoy both these video clips =) very enlightening!

(one of ) The Last Supper(s)

2010-06-20T00:19:00.001+08:00

Meet up at Yuen Steamboat Buffet Restaurant @ Subang for lihyi's b'day...

Happy 19th, LIH YI!!! Thank you for all your cute cute antics and delicious pastry and for being an avid fan of the chinese auspicious colour--red! hehe =)

I think we were too obsessed eating ice cream to be picking out expensive seafood for the steamboat o.O

Oh ya and anyway the rest of us made a cake for lihyi too! I daresay one the the more successful cakes I've baked with my mediocre skills; so I'm pretty proud of it, and thanks to mama for the great recipe!

Green Tea Cake with Raspberry Filling
Ingredients:
A
150 g superfine flour
2g (1/4 tsp) baking powder
80g castor sugar
1g (1/4 tsp) salt

B
60g melted butter
75g (4 nos) egg yolks
60ml water
5g green tea powder

C
150g (4 nos) egg whites
100g castor sugar
1g (1/4 tsp) cream of tartar

Decoration
400g non dairy fresh cream
200g raspberry filling
5g green tea powder
some fruits

1. Combine A and mix well.
2. Add in B and blend to form smooth batter
3. Beat C until stiff peaks form
4. Gradually fold in 1/3 of egg white foam into the batter, stir gently, repeat, mix well.
5. Pour batter into 9 inch lined cake tin. Bake at 180 Celsius for 30-35 mins.

Decoration:
1. Split the cake horizontally into 3 layers, place bottom layer as base, spread with whipped cream, some raspberry filling on top. Place 2nd layer cake on top.
2. Lastly spread remaining whipped cream on top of cake. Sprinkle green tea powder on top. Garnish top with fruits.

Work starts next monday.. more kids! (and hopefully less crying XD)

Moviesmoviesmovies

2010-06-13T17:04:00.001+08:00

Went out yesterday to 1U for kk's birthday celebration (no pics available until kk posts them on fb and I go grab them keke) and boy! I think I'm one of the few left in our group that's like really free to organise gatherings o.O

I still remembered last year we did the same thing for kk's bday too! Went to 1U for a movie =) just that last year we hid at her house underneath her kitchen counter just to surprise her... And the year before that we just gotten to know each other and didn't know each other's bdays yet, so I remembered that day she was like "Today is my b'day." Then we went "Oh! Happy b'day!" Haha so awkward.

OMG I sound like an old woman recalling the times when her hair was black, long and flowy & running around wasn't a problem o.O

It's just memories that I linger onto haplessly. What is my problem?

Movies watched recently:
1. Killers
Starring Katherine Heigl and Ashton Kutcher. (ASHTON KUTCHER!! showing off his abs!! that's reason enough to watch right) Watched this movie yesterday with the others but klang people were late(which includes me haha) so missed out the front part; Spencer (Ashton) is a spy who decides to quit his job after meeting the love of his life (Katherine) at Nice. 3 years later (somehow, I don't remember why) he has got 20 million bounty on his head and so practically you can see most of his friendly suburbia neighbours turn out to be gun-wielding and a**-kicking assassins. But the movie seemed kind of short for me! But then again we were late for more than half an hour, so. Haha

2. Son of Rambow

Watched on Funshion. Relatively unknown film but pretty good! About two young boys, one a classic school mischief and the other from a strict religious family who get together to film an amateur movie about the son of Rambo saving Rambo (you even get a glimpse of Sylvester Stallone in his heydays). Basically a movie about friendship and the power of dreams. Sweet, lighthearted AND ALSO co-starring Ed Westwick (who plays Chuck Bass in Gossip Girl). You get to see him flaunt his native British slang =)

3. Howl's Moving Castle (Japanese film; directed by Hayao Mizayaki)
A 2D animation adapted from Diana Wynne Jones' book that is superb simply because of Hayao Mizayaki! An awesome awesome artist but I was a bit confused with the plot though; it didn't follow the book cover to cover o.O

Okay gotta go watch more movies again! What a way to spend the holidays T.T

The 10 (Holiday) Commandments

2010-06-04T23:02:00.000+08:00

1. Thou shalt not succumb to stalking cute guys on facebook (unless it's someone called Sam! inside joke XD)

2. Thou shalt pick up reading novels (again) and finish at least 4 books in the next two weeks.

3. Thou shalt spend more time at home, esp since I'll be going off in a couple of months =)

4. Thou shalt try doing something constructive besides msn-ing all night

5. Thou shalt CONTROL MY DIET. And get rid of that flabby tummy!

6. Thou shalt limit my spending and stop browsing taiwan shopping websites and salivating over the uber pretty clothes

7. Thou shalt read up on how to make kids actually listen to me. And stop being so naughty/emo/stubborn/cunning/scheming little devils!

8. Thou shalt stop trying so hard to make 10 commandments

9. Thou shalt try my best to prevent eyelids from merging

10. Thou shalt simply go to sleep right NOW. ha! =)

Missing u like crazy

2010-06-01T21:03:00.001+08:00

OMG when I saw this pic I seriously felt a pang of misery.

Long, long, long gone were the times of lame jokes & lengthy votes for lunch & our reverberating laughter all around Inti T.T

I miss kaykay's 走快点! and the flicker of her rebonded-and-dyed hair in the hot afternoon sun

I miss wanying's adsfkwoifjwefje (cannot catch what she's saying cause her speech is almost faster than the speed of light haha)

I miss beeshuang's 我很懒惰 & how she mounts her head like a horse when she doesn't feel like doing something (haha does anyone understand what I mean? sorry it sounds so.. wrong)

I miss mama's laughter (I mean who can forget that?) and 你不觉得他很像...and 很容易折断 and 那个傻佬

I miss lihyi's helpless whimper (hahaaa but not in an offensive way) and her homecooked food!!

I miss teckhong's car (haha our means of transport to subang) and his reaction towards gossip *wink*

I miss suathoon's (almost) inaudible voice and her (almost) reckless driving!

I miss chaicheen's cry of 哇你看那个女子很瘦 when she herself is an equal (if not thinner) opponent

I miss hui lee for simply being the newcomer in our group but fitting in perfectly nevertheless!! haha

I MISS YOU.

*sobs*

Life in Suspension

2010-05-29T21:00:00.000+08:00

It is very, very, very likely that I will be going HKU.

Without a scholarship!

T.T

Course fees are pretty affordable, costing around RM 225,000 (at exchange rate of RM 1 = 4.5 HKD) for my 5 year med course.

But after including other costs (which mounted to be A LOT!) I might spend around RM 350k-400k during that 5 years at the current exchange rate.

*gasp*

p.s. guess who am I dropping the universe-sized hint at? hehe =)

Who do you love the most?

2010-05-21T21:11:00.001+08:00

Today the 4 year olds listened to a story titled "Who do you love the most?" 你最爱谁?

At the end, the teacher asked them, one by one, who they loved the most among their friends; they chose their favourite and went up to hug that friend.

Zu Cern picked Jun Han.

Yi Shuen picked Yan Zhen.

Ja An picked Jun Han (2nd time! hee); this hug looked damn awkward though haha

Ging Yee picked Yi Shuen. (another awkward one!)

The 2nd last one to choose was Rayden.

Teacher: 亦杰，你最爱谁? Rayden, who do you love the most?

Rayden: 。。。。

Teacher: 来，告诉老师。。Come, tell teacher...

Rayden: 。。。。

Teacher: 没关系，你小小声告诉老师。。。It's okay, just whisper into my ears...

Rayden: 那个戴手表的那个... The one with the wristwatch...

Teacher: 姚老师啊? Teacher Yiaw? (Another teacher who always wears a watch)

Rayden: 不是啦，小的。No la, a small one (meaning another kid, not a grown up... haha)

Teacher: 。。是不是。。俊涵? Is it Jun Han?

Rayden: *Nods head*

After much persuasion from the teacher, he trudges up to Jun Han.

Shy betul~~ haha

... which ended in a group hug!!

Finally, the last kid was Li Xian.

Guess who he chose?

杨老师! (Does this even need translation? Me la. XD)

Though he is pretty rebellious and angst-ridden (his emotions fluctuate faster than a heartbeat) I felt so warm and fuzzy inside. Simply, to be loved =)

*hugs back Li Xian*

So have you hugged a loved one today?

NUS MBBS (medicine) interview experience

2010-05-18T18:35:00.000+08:00

Just got the reply from NUS; a no for MBBS and they offered me bioengineering, but anyway here's how the interview went =)

There are 2 rounds of interview, first by faculty members (eg professors), then by those working in the medical profession(eg doctors, nurses) / current students. Each round should take around half an hour (but my first round was around 10-15 mins.. hopefully it was cause they ran out of questions to ask! but I didn't get chosen anyway so. haha)

First round: Aha the tough one! By 3 professors. Be prepared to think on your feet as their questions can be very diverse and unpredictable. The questions that I got:
1. What do you know about the life of a Singaporean doctor?
2. What do you think of doctors on call in which they may work for 36 hours non stop?
3. For pilots, they cannot work for more than a certain amount of hours (eg they need adequate amount of sleep) while doctors are not granted such a privilege. Why is that so?
4. Why choose NUS
5. Why should we choose you
6. (because I said I wasn't money minded for question 5, they said most doctors come in saying they don't work for the money, but eventually they get involved in unethical behaviour too, eg performing unnecessary operations etc just for the money) Why do you think doctors nowadays seem to value money more than patients' welfare? What should be done to change this situation?
7. What do you know about the Singapore health policy (and I think I mentioned it was better than the Malaysian one, so) why do you think it's better than Malaysian's policies?

Second round: I was interviewed by 2 doctors. This round is exceptionally helpful for bright, cheerful, talkative ones who wouldn't mind telling your family history dating back to your great-grandparents (honestly! they would bear with you till you were done)

Basically they asked me things like:
1. Tell me more about your A level course.
2. What's your favourite A level subject?
3. What's your hobby? (then i replied reading, which is true to some extent; I do read, just not as frequent as I would prefer)
4. Can you tell me about one of the books you've read (I elaborated on Picture of Dorian Gray; actually I was thinking of Roald Dahl but some of his adult books had highly sexually explicit content, so I had to forgo that ^^)
5. What's the difference between government and private hospitals in Malaysia?
6. How have you displayed leadership qualities through past experiences?
5. Do you have anything to ask us? (This question caught me by surprise so I gave them a very, very hesitant no. Because I honestly didn't know what to ask!)

As for attire, a bit less formal than the HKU interview(everyone there donned coats!); guys wore ties and gals just wore formal wear since wearing a coat will practically leave you drenched in sweat before you even enter the interviewing room, memandangkan the awesome weather in Singapore =)

Apparently they only take in 10 international students per intake and last year there were 1 or 2 Malaysians (and so they say; not officially verified information) Candidates will be evaluated based on such scores:

50% A level/other exams results
50% Interview & Essay (title will be given on the spot, a few days before the med interview) & ECA (extra curricular activities)

Somewhere around NUS; didn't get a pic of YLL School of Medicine

All the best for those applying in the future! Don't be shaken on the 1st round though; give yourself time to think before answering their questions, cause it's hard to take back what you've already said!

Oh ya my essay question: Websites, blogs, social networking sites have been proliferating of late. In your opinion, what effect does this have on the educational community? Should restrictions be implemented?

Click here for my HKU MBBS interview =)

Dwindling numbers

2010-05-15T20:07:00.000+08:00

Susahnya buat gathering!

Absentees:
WY - Too far up in Alor Setar and only willing to come if we sponsor everything haa
BS - Having exam tomorrow (she's studying medicine, so. That pretty sums up her stress level XD )
KK - Busy doing housework (you can literally ice-skate on the floor at her house o.O) and having dance practice later
LY - Having A Level exams!! Good luck good luck good luck =)
Hui Lee - working @ subzero (and ironically, resigning on Sunday, which is tomorrow T.T)
CC - her 1st week staying outside home (somewhere near HELP uni college) and her parents want her to stay in and don't go out (???)

Those who made it:

@ the Apartment, The Curve. We weren't exactly famished so we ordered dessert. Food was honestly just okay and very pricey! I paid like RM 9 for a bottle of fanta orange which tasted exactly like miranda orange softdrink...

But we still managed to entertain ourselves by laughing at a flea market shop attendant across the street (haha 江山易改本性难移! Us will be us ^^)

Then.. to the movies--A Nightmare on Elm Street!

The sort of movie where the (usually) hideous villain suddenly pops out and attempts to scare the soul out of you, which is acceptable for my definition of horror. Thai & Korean horror movies are an absolute, definite no. (I've only watched Shutter and the scene where she suddenly materialized in the photo is still oven-fresh in my mind! scarryyyy)

Hopefully there will be full attendance for the next gathering! Till then =)

Is it love?

2010-05-10T20:35:00.001+08:00

Yan Ting & Andrew

Today during lunch.

4 kids at the table. Yan Ting & Andrew finished their meals and got up to clean up at the same time.

E Jayn

E Jayn: Yan Ting 和 Andrew 一起吃完，他们就会一起结婚! Since Yan Ting & Andrew finished at the same time, they will get married!

Yeu Han

Yeu Han: 那我要跟你一起吃完。。。Then I want to finish eating the same time as you...

E Jayn: You say that one more time and I'm going to slap you're buttock! (haha she said this in english)

Yeu Han: 杨老师，什么是buttock? (Teacher, what is buttock?)

=)

Big, Bad World

2010-05-05T23:02:00.001+08:00

Introducing Rayden, our cute lil' four year old who'll melt any teacher's heart with his cheeky tongue-sticking-out feat and by walking like a drunk!

Today, he was sort of ostracized by the rest of the class during playtime; the first time I actually saw him being left out during play. From what I saw, the kids seemed to like grouping up and imitating each other, and agreeing with majority. And Rayden was simply part of the unfortunate process of eliminating the weak link.

But it does still ring true for adults, doesn't it? We all like finding our own clique, get acknowledged and "exile" the "different" one just to satisfy our inner insecurities. We don't like our authority/position in a society to be challenged and so we just remove the problems.

Just that I felt a pang of sadness when I saw how hurt he became. Because if it were to happen to me, I would cry too, only inwardly. Children are bad actors/actresses, and it's such a good thing.

Unfortunately, though, we adults are excellent actors.

I miss him.

2010-04-24T15:14:00.000+08:00

Kuah Jun Ping. My Std 1 year old nephew in Singapore, who gives me suffocating hugs every time he sees me. And tickling & wrestling sessions on the mattress.

Plus, saying 芝慧姐姐，我喜欢你。

No wonder he has 2 girlfriends at school! (p.s. the gals are actually twins. Naughty naughty! XD)

No directions.

2010-04-21T17:46:00.000+08:00

Finally finished watching GLEE! Season 1 today. The mash-ups are great!

This whole month of April has been me running here and there attending interviews/tests for uni admission. Honestly. And just today, just when I've finally rested by butt in front of the computer, ready to start blogging on my Singapore trip, there pops up this invitation for ASEAN undergraduate scholarship interview next monday.

*pening*

It's like everything I do is a big fat ball of uncertainty, and it just gets bigger. Although frankly I think I did fairly well for both medicine interviews (HKU, NUS) but still chances are really, really, really slim.

It's all in God's hands =)

Gee.

2010-04-20T09:08:00.000+08:00

What have I gotten myself into?

Let me get my armour ready, battle is @ 4pm today.

*shivers*

I shouldn't be here. Again.

2010-04-16T11:34:00.000+08:00

(continuation from last post)

Along the streets of HK, the crowd is pretty chaotic; everyone is like rushing to somewhere but it's like they are headed in all directions all at once! And the roads are pretty confusing too; BS and I could walk past a couple of streets and end up back where we started o.O

And oh ya. Everyone was covered from neck to toe; in thin jackets, boots, leggings etc; We definitely stood out as tourists by being the only ones happily strolling the streets, with no sense of direction with T shirts on. It was around 16-20 degrees Celcius and we thought it was slightly hotter than Genting

BS just wore a tank top plus a scarf! tee hee

Tin Hau Temple @ Stanley; the temple was quite mini but this wall art was just so photograph-worthy!

Jumbo Floating Restaurant @ Aberdeen. It's like this high class restaurant for dim sum but we being economy-friendly tourists decided to just hop on the free ferry ride to the restaurant, take pics and head back ^^

Amazing scenery along Stanley Market! I guess this was one of the best decisions we made, going there :)

Lan Kwai Fong, the pub/clubbing district in HK. We went there just to look around, at like 6/7pm so there wasn't much of a crowd either. But sejurus pulang dari HK, apparently Fiona Sit (Sit Hoi Kei) was spotted there on the night we were there! Aiks too bad we missed her (by a couple of hours haa)

Not forgetting to thank Wen Xian, Ser Siang & Natalie & a couple others who took the effort to meet up with us and going to The Peak together! Thanks Jason Soo for the introduction too :)

Our interview at HKU. It went okay I guess, but then competition is tough. Of course I want it, but I'll guess I'll have to settle for "been there, done that" at the moment :)

Last pic before landing on Malaysian ground. Airasia water bottles sponsored by friendly neighbour seated on BS's right--a 40-something guy who was apparently my dad's junior in Uni and lived like 10 mins away from my house! Talk about six degrees of separation.

Anyway thanks BS for your far more adventurous spirit &&& hope we get to go again! Still didn't manage to explore Lantau Island & Noah's Ark etc T.T

I shouldn't be here.

2010-04-14T23:51:00.000+08:00

Recently life has been like bungee jumping.

Into this infinite abyss of darkness, minus the safety rope.

I don't know whether it'll be a hard, blowing fall or will there be a super comfy Dunlopillo waiting for me at the end. And the fall itself is agonising enough T.T

Putting in my effort going to HK to attend the HKU interview was a pretty big deal for me, and honestly that was the 1st medicine interview I had ever attended (I applied for Bioengineering for UK unis) Thankfully BS went with me (and not my dad! gasp) so honestly we really, really enjoyed ourselves and had a great time and sorta fell in love with the city in the process!

Just FYI last year 12 international applicants attended the interview and only 2 got chosen; so obviously we fell in love with the wrong "person" o.O

You might have had enough pics to see for our HK trip (meaning me with BS) on facebook so I'll just write based on random thoughts and musings (BS will definitely refer people to read this post cause she's lazy to blog about our trip XD)

Everything in Hong Kong is about efficiency.

Their elevators are fast. The people walk at a really hurried pace. We barely waited 5 minutes for the MTR. Every single time.

This is Australian Dairy Co. at Parkes Street near Jordan MTR. Amazing food there at a really reasonable price! Order 蛋白炖鲜奶 (egg white with milk) even BS the milk and cheese hater loved it!

The waiters take your order really quickly, get to it really quickly, but the only problem is BS and I are terribly indecisive when left with too many choices! The waiters seemed pretty calm but I bet they were like fai dit la (faster la in cantonese) inside

They have really big appetites (but the food's not exactly cheap also) and everyone stays amazingly slim though! I guess it's cause they walk alot (it's like the whole population takes the MTR and there are like masses of people on the streets in the daytime) and also cause they might not fit into their homes if they grow too much horizontally? Haa just a theory.

We didn't go to HK Disneyland & Ocean Park cause we would have to spend like a whole day and sometimes you just want to go venture uncharted lands I suppose :)

Places we went to:
~Temple Street 庙街 (Exit @ Jordan MTR)
~Ladies Street 女人街 (Exit @ Mongkok MTR)
~Stanley Market 赤柱 (Take MTR to Central 中环 then take 6/6A/6X bus to Stanley)
~The Peak 太平山 (Take MTR to Central then ask around cause I forgot how to get there, my HKU friends took us there ^^)
~Golden Bauhinia Square (Take MTR to Wan Chai 湾仔 then just follow signage to go to the pier)
~Aberdeen 香港仔 (We went there by bus from Stanley Market but I think anyhow you can take a bus from Central too)
~Lan Kwai Fong 兰桂坊 (Exit @ Central MTR)
~Tsim Sha Tsui 尖沙咀 (Exit @ Tsim Sha Tsui MTR)

Temple & Ladies Street are almost like pasar malam, sans the smell of roasted chestnuts and char koay teow; in fact there were almost no food stalls in Ladies Street! And unlike Taiwanese Night Markets like Shilin, the main attraction isn't food; just stalls selling I <3 HK T shirts, tiny trinkets, bags and misc (and nowadays iPhone covers; one can barely find handphone pouches anymore)

To me, temple street was a better place to shop because somehow the storekeepers weren't so aggressive with their sales so it was less stressful in a way :)

Okay I would really like to continue but my eyelids are giving way... So hopefull you'll see a part 2 on this? Till then! :)

Of food, kids and vanity

2010-04-03T20:24:00.001+08:00

Nothing much to blog about lately; just started tuition classes with a Std 6 year old kid whose obsessed with tigers and Facebook and is almost taller than me (gasp!) Some pics to walk you through my past couple of weeks:

1. Food
Balik kampung to Batu Gajah but stopped by Ipoh for Taugeh Chicken.. Mmm look at those fat juicy taugehs!!

2. Kids!

Jun Yee; 6 yr old kid who instantly reminded me of Siew Ying! Dontcha think?

Eunice, who has stopped coming to our kindy; one of the most obedient and independent 4 yr old in the class! And always the first to enthusiastically call out "yang lao shi" when I enter the class :)

3. Vanity
Went shopping for my formal clothes for HKU medicine interview @ Hong Kong this coming Friday! Going with BS *excited*

Happy Birthday Lee Bee Shuang whose b'day coincidentally falls on Easter Sunday!!

Our beloved serial cheese-hater whose brain runs on a Pentium triple core processor, you know we love you~

I am afraid

2010-03-29T18:41:00.000+08:00

... of forgetting.

How the radio was always on full blast in KK's car when she came to pick us up from Subang KTM station.

The smell of KFC in Carrefour when we walk past it, and mama used to say it was damn smelly XD

Asking each other 今天吃什么 (what to eat today for lunch) and everyone saying 随便 (anything) ^^ and counting the number of ticks on the "where for lunch" voting paper

The female voice in Inti lift saying "Firs-tuh floor."

How we nicknamed basically all the strangers at Inti-- from 红毛丹 (rambutan) because of his hair, 洗脸盆(basin) his name sounded like one, water cooler we were busy admiring how slim our legs looked from the reflection on the water cooler we didn't notice him standing behind us with an utterly confused expression, KP haha sorry reason undisclosed, to 蓝牙小孩 (bluetooth kid) bluetooth kid because he always wore one around school (Did I miss out anyone?)

....of the distance.

How work and uni life separates us all.

.... of the person I will become.

Will I take physical beauty too seriously?

Will I stop sharing and caring when I enter uni?

...of letting go.

... of how things will never be the same. Ever.

I am afraid, so I pray that God will guide me through it.

2in1

2010-03-17T17:49:00.000+08:00

One.

Attended Yenwoon's YES Business Challenge a few days back @ Menara Star, PJ. Thanks to Lyndy for the lift! And Justin for the lift back ^^ Congrats to their team, Shining Dawn, who made it to the top 10!!! The winning team will be able to kickstart their business plan with RM 25,000

I think it takes not only courage, but also spontaneity and wit to speak in front of the panel of CEO judges (OMG got 1 damn lengzai and charismatic *drools*) But anyway their team did great and they totally deserved it!

The top was borrowed from Yenwoon too by the way. Used the same one for my HKU scholarship interview XD

Two.

My cousin's kids came over yesterday, and gosh they are a smart bunch! This here is only Std 1 but already has two girlfriends! Simultaneously; and according to him, one even kissed him on the cheek o.O

Playing MAD; it's actually the opposite to Monopoly; the one who loses all his money wins!

Std 3 kid

Std 4; and they both beat me in an IQ game! And it did not feel good XD

And you know what.. I suddenly realised I miss the kids at my kindergarten. Distance really makes the heart grow fonder I suppose :)

An exciting day (hopefully) tomorrow!

Dealing with loss

2010-03-11T20:51:00.002+08:00

Sometimes I feel that the human heart is impeccably made; not only does it have this enormous capacity to continually pump blood, but also to store a fragile substance---emotion. It's like sometimes when you miss someone too much, you can feel it contracting, like it feels your pain too.

I currently substitute for the daycare teacher at my kindergarten. One of my Std 1 students, Derwin came in today which a blank look on his face; his usual mischievous wink gone from his eyes. Soon he started sobbing at his seat.

Me: 志铭，你今天做什么? 考试都考完了，你现在是担心什么? (Derwin, exams are already over, what are you still worried about?)

Derwin: *shakes head in frustration*

Me: 来，志铭，有什么事情就跟老师说，不要用哭的，这样我解决不了你的问题。。。(Derwin, crying cannot solve the problem, if you tell me what it is maybe I can help you...)

Derwin: *stares blankly ahead, tears streaming down*

Derwin: 昨天我11晚上才睡。(I slept at 11 last night.)

Me: 哦，这样是不够睡是吗? (Not enough sleep?)

Derwin: 昨天我们拜我的婆婆。。。(Yesterday we had a funeral for my grandmother)

Me: 你的婆婆昨天走的是吗? (She just passed yesterday is it?)

Derwin: *nods head, cries uncontrollably*

Me: 没关系的，每个人到了一天也会走的，你这样一直哭，婆婆如果看到了也会很伤心的。。。她永远都会住在你心里(puts hand on his heart)，那是谁也拿不掉的。。。(my lame advice about letting go, not worth translating T.T)

Honestly tears were welling up in me at that moment. I felt it was really too great a burden for a 7 year old kid to bear. Letting go is never easy, no matter how old we are; the difference is just that we do a better job of covering it up.

But somehow I feel lucky knowing this young soul. He taught me how it felt like, missing someone dear. How some things are easier said than done and that emotions are precious, despite how much we sometimes wish a lack of one would save us from all the pain.

I guess upon leaving life on earth, we all want to leave a part of ourselves behind. If I were Derwin's grandmother, I would be real satisfied, because I know I'll live on in his memories, and in the bottomless depths of his heart.

May her soul rest in peace.

You are beautiful

2010-03-02T21:49:00.002+08:00

For the past two months, I've always worn contact lenses to work at kindergarten; but on a whim I decided to wear plain glasses maybe just for this week; partially to save tons of hassle wearing and removing it too ^^

General responses from the kids:

~杨老师，为什么你戴眼镜? 你近视了啊? Teacher, why are you wearing specs? Have you become short sighted?

~你是不是看电视机看得很近? Have you been sitting too close to the TV?

~你的眼珠叻? Where are your eyeballs? HAHA this was understandably from a 4-year old (youngest age of children in the kindergarten)

Generally girls were more critical with my looks:

~我不喜欢你戴眼镜，戴了丑丑。。I don't like you wearing specs, it makes you look ugly...
~你没有戴眼镜比较美... You look better without specs...

But there was this one guy who flattered me ^^

~你的眼镜好~~~美哦!! Your specs are super pretty!! *concludes his statement with an awed expression*

The aforementioned kid. A 6-year old. His V-sign was too close to the camera ^^

Somehow his words comfort me. How a child looks past what's stereotypically classified as pretty and learns to see beauty in even the most unimpressive object. (Although, ironically, I took of my specs before taking this pic =.=)

Why do the typical eye candies you find (esp on facebook) are big-eyed, small mouthed and ultra fair?

In fact I think all my friends are beautiful. To name a few,

Mama is beautiful when she laughs.

SH is beautiful when she cowers in fear from butterflies.

BS is beautiful when her face cringes at the smell of cheese.

WY is beautiful when she speaks super, super fast.

KK is beautiful when she hollers at us to WALK FASTER!!!

CC is beautiful when she goes all shy admitting she's going out with her bf later.

LY is beautiful when she has this super obsessed look when she discovers her fav food--bread.

Swt is beautiful when she's not lying and not MIA-ing (T.T)

Chee Ling is beautiful when she starts talking and can't find her full stop *winks*

Qiuhong is beautiful when you see how much she loves God. Cheryl is beautiful when she laughs at even the lamest jokes.

Tiffy is beautiful when she's being totally feminist. (HAHA you know what I mean)

You. Are. Beautiful.

Don't believe me? Go ask a kid.

Words in Pictures

2010-02-28T21:21:00.001+08:00

What is this about? Open for speculation :)

Happy (at least I'm trying to be)

2010-02-26T00:20:00.000+08:00

Something a friend said has got me thinking. Am I starting to treat this blog as a dumping ground for negative feelings? (eg endless pangs of emo-ness). If you're looking to be uplifted and inspired you should totally check out Katie Sokoler's blog. She's awesome! (I especially loved this post.)

Anyway this year's CNY ended pretty eventless save for the annual home visits among college friends. But somehow last year was so so much more fun! Either it was due to

lack of any element of surprise (after being together for 1.5 years we've sort of been to each other's places and got to known our families)
lack of wonder (omg last year when we 1st arrived at teckhong's house we were ~~practically screaming our lungs out in the car~~ simply awestruck)
lack of traffic jam! (last year there was this major major traffic jam from my place to teckhong's place; across the klang river; around 2 hours I think and we used to joke that it would be faster for BS to balik kampung @ Taiping) during the jam we 3G-ed each other and screamed even more in the car haha
lack of use of public transport. Ever since TH and SH almost always have had cars, KTM became sort of a pantang thing; so used to being so comfortable and not having to wait for that oh-so-punctual KTMtrain (which has further changed its timetable to 30 mins per ride! T.T)
lack of kakis. Takde Lih Yi and Wan ying!!! Lan sok queen and fastest speaker turned out to be vital.. Miss you guys le....

And also went for HKU scholarship interview last Sunday @ Traders Hotel KL. OMG can you believe the taxi fare from KLCC to the hotel was RM 15??? (was only a 5 min walk) and around 75 people from M'sia were interviewed; Too bad I'm not the outspoken type... Anyway will pray for the best!

Yay tomorrow's a public holiday! No work haha ^^

p.s. congrats to Cheeling for acing her STPM! Good luck with uni application :)

G-L-A-M-O-R-OUS

2010-02-17T13:24:00.002+08:00

I know I sound like a ~~rich tai-tai~~ chun gu (In Manglish: kampung girl) flaunting her possessions but guess what sis got me as a present for my A Level results XD

A PRADA set of perfume + tissue (???) + lotion!

Apparently Prada in UK is about 50% cheaper than sold elsewhere. LOL sorry I know I should be more discreet. And subtle. But the thing is saya tak tahu guna perfume T.T Some people say you're supposed to spray it high in the air before you and then walk into it. Is this true??

And sadly, I will never fit in with the food & wine connoisseurs etc because my sensory organs are pretty much numb and damaged. I cannot tell if the food is over-salty unless people start commenting about the food. Then all my senses seem to come back to me. So I remember once my college friends and I went to Sasa to ~~smell~~ test the perfumes and they all smelled the same to me o.O

Another thing sis bought untuk saya:

Fluff is a US brand but the designs are similar to the brand Lollipop, no?

Anyway. Been watching tons of movies lately... And time indeed crawls by without work! OMG I've been checking facebook too many times a day.

1. August Rush
2. 9
3. The Bucket List

4. Julie & Julia
5. True Legend

August Rush was okay... The whole "music-is-all-around-us-&-we-just-need-to-listen" concept is pretty interesting to watch though the plot is a teensy bit unbelievable, but Freddie Highmore (from Charlie & The Chocolate Factory is so sweet ^^)

9 was lame; apparently it was supposed to be a short movie and they sort of lengthened it to make it into a movie. But the lamest was True Legend; but I guess through this movie I realised Zhou Xun is my fav female Chinese actress! She has this intelligent-cum-pretty look :)

Julie & Julia portrays the parallel lives of Julie (Amy Adams) in the year 2002 and Julia (Meryl Streep) around the 1950 era. About how both women fall in love with cooking; loved this show though didn't like Amy Adams that much.

The Bucket List by Jack Nicholson & Morgan Freeman. Need I say more? Not bad but still, not amazing too.

That's it for now!

L.O.V.E.

2010-02-13T09:21:00.000+08:00

I guess if you know me well enough, you'd have known that I am one of those hopeless romantics obsessed with "old people love". I just think it's so so sweet to see Ah Kongs and Ah Mas holding hands etc. Oh ya once, I saw an elderly couple riding on a motorbike, with the auntie on the backseat. The wind was in her hair and she had the "I'm the happiest woman in the world" look on her face. LOL! It's like they spent their whole lives with each other somehow merge into one inseparable body, dependent on each other to make it to the next day.

Ah Kong and Ah Ma. Ah Kong has less than 50% of his vision left, while Ah Ma can hardly walk far without physical support. So Ah Kong becomes Ah Ma's walking stick and Ah Ma becomes Ah Kong's eyes. Don't you think they work like one unified body instead of two separate entities? I've never given tribute to them for taking care of me for the past 18++ years.

Though they've told me the story of my birth 24598435847 times (you know last time you were this small *cupping both hands*) and often dramatize matters (it's 3 something already, faster go bathe la *clock showing 2.30pm =.=*) I love them. And I love that they love each other in ways that I cannot even fathom. So many years together and still not sick of each other! <3

Working with kids (esp 4-year-olds!) is definitely a new experience for me. I have always been taken care of and never EVER socialized with kids. Like I don't know whether making funny faces or acting cute will make them laugh or look at me semacam o.O

But one thing I've learned this that when you give them love and praise, they'll love you back in return. I'm telling you when the kids manja-manja with me, my heart really melts though I'm supposed to be the teacher and give everyone their fair amount of love and sayang (pronounced sa3 yang2.. haha). Their love comes in the purest, most innocent form. Before they ~~start watching Taiwanese dramas and learn up cheesy dialogues and a twisted concept of love~~ grow up and figure out that

people are obsessed with physical beauty
people usually say things, both good and bad, that they don't mean

Though I'm (still!) celebrating Single Awareness Day this year, I'm looking at it all in a different light. Love has become so "all talk and no action". Telling people you love them through sms. Facebook apps. Apani??

Tell your mom/wife you love her by helping out with new year decoration. Stop fighting with your sis over who gains ownership to the double volume mascara. Help your dad/husband with the painting and listen to his grumbles for another day (*crosses fingers*).

LOVE in its many forms. So what is there to lose?

Lack of pictures.

2010-02-10T22:06:00.000+08:00

I think I'm living in the past.

Today SH, CC, TH and I (the Klang people) went to subang ~~to go Sunway lepak~~ for the NTU talk back at Inti, which wasn't really a necessary trip. I didn't have to take half day leave for the talk since I could've submitted my application online too (just that I saved postal money since I submitted supporting documents by hand).

Nowadays whenever we make these sort of short trips, we always have a camera in hand. I'm just wondering are we taking pictures to recapture the moments of our totally totally fun & 100% stress-free college life. Making stupid poses and playing lame pranks on passerbys (haha you won't want to know; it's damn lame)

Haha it's just me being emo. Again.

anticipation

2010-02-06T22:36:00.000+08:00

I've stopped using Facebook apps of late (because my computer then operates at snail like pace); and just realized I have nothing much to do online! Forwarded mails seem like a obsolete fad; not to mention, blogs too T.T

But movies never go out of fashion! Just watched Cloudy with a Chance of Meatballs and Sherlock Holmes today. Both were fantastic; Cloudy in a laugh out loud, entertaining way and Sherlock Holmes with a witty and CSI-ish sort of appeal; and Robert Downey Jr. is definitely a hunk for his age! *drools*

CNY is around the corner!! Really looking forward to making CNY visits with college friends and going out etc! But since I'm part-timing at the kindergarten's daycare department, pretty stressed out too cause my Std 1 and 2 students are having their exams beginning of march... Haha the first time I'm actually worried about someone else's exam; I feel like a mom le

FINALLY watching Avatar tomorrow! I feel prehistoric.

Bored + Lonely = Binge eating!

2010-02-02T23:39:00.000+08:00

Initially I was planning on doing a post on work; but then again my job aspects have been somewhat altered of late; which made me decide that I'll write about this AFTER I quit ^^

But honestly with work, time flies. After work, that is. It's like I go home, surf the Net, bathe, have dinner, chat on msn and it's already time to hit the sack. And occasionally fit in a movie or read a chapter or two (I'm still on the Lovely Bones! I'm reading at snail-speed T.T)

And I subconsciously typed "lik" instead of "like"! What does this mean??? Most probably will sit for IELTS soon so I'll have to take note if my English starts going downhill o.O

Miss Taiwan, miss college friends, and feeling terribly emo right now. Luckily SH stopped by a few hours back for 2 hours of pillow talk; I'm in desperate need of a social life; eg chatting with people my age. Today a Std 1 year old gal asked me "Teacher, you got boyfriend or not?" LOL, apparently she wanted to intro me to her male teacher who's around 19/20 yrs old HAHA

Okay! On the bright side I'll be going Inti next week so hopefully we'll have a more successful gathering! Compared with the one a few days back at mid valley T.T

I seriously need to practice smiling in front of the mirror.

*grin*

Till I'm feeling better,
tzehui

Cuteness on the loose!!

2010-01-27T21:45:00.000+08:00

Hehe more updates soon ^^

Rumusan of the month

2010-01-26T22:29:00.000+08:00

Update of events over the past month:

Primary school gathering at AEON Bkt Tinggi-- consisting of only 8 members, but still a pleasant get-together :)

Dinner at Manhattan Fish Market--costing about RM 28 per person o.O

Long time no see! Esp Yew Jeen who disappeared after Form 5 (2nd from left on top row)

Met up with Cheeling on 23rd Jan to celebrate her 20th b'day! Dinner @ Kenny Roger's and watched the movie 大日子 Woohoo! (local production I think; actors including MY fm deejays etc; not bad! really funny at times)

Got my A2 results just yesterday; 4A's! Glad but don't know what to do with it; only left with the choice of waiting for offer letters (if any) T.T

Sorry la tired again today.. Will probably update my work in kindergarten on a weekend :)

Nitez!

Jitters.

2010-01-24T17:14:00.000+08:00

I. AM. SO. FREAKING. SCARED. RIGHT. NOW.

A2 results out tomorrow at 10am!

More updates soon, no mood at the moment. Reading The Lovely Bones by Alice Sebold. Regretted watching the on screen adaptation first 'cause the actors' faces are now imprinted in my brain cells

Reading is my one and only escape.

PPS Marathon

2010-01-18T15:33:00.000+08:00

Image via Wikipedia

Been watching a great deal of movies on PPS lately!

1. Harry Potter and the Half-Blood Prince
It was okay, but the visual effects were really impressive compared to its previous sequels. Ron is his usual comical self though Harry's (Daniel Radcliffe) acting is still a little stiff o.O

2. Star Trek

Chris Pine is oh-so-charismatic! Plus I've always loved Zachary Quinto from the Heroes series. He plays Spock in the movie. It received really really good reviews but then again I'm not really a sci-fi person

3. The Lovely Bones (adapted from the novel by Alice Sebold)

Image by Getty Images via Daylife

I liked this movie! Apparently fans of the novel were let down, though it was directed by none other than the famed Peter Jackson. Fell in love with Saoirse Ronan (you might've seen her from Atonement). There's this intelligent, ethereal glow about her. Definitely an up-and-coming actress!

4. Up In the Air
A pretty heavy movie for me, since it's about the recession problem in the US. But it also deals with relationship problems, how people nowadays prefer "casual" relationships and not willing to settle down that much. A really realistic approach to the topic and honestly the 1st time I've seen a George Clooney movie!

Okay more updates soon :)

In a muddle

2010-01-16T15:03:00.001+08:00

Whoa my previous post was actually fully in Mandarin! Since the whole study tour is catered mainly for chinese-eds, plus the post might easily be spotted if people do a Google search for the tour^^

Days have become so so much shorter ever since work began. And I haven't finished writing my personal 21-day trip diary for future reference, and write my Uni of HK personal statement (omg another headache) and finish watching The Little Nyonya on PPS. And start reading novels again. And and and the neverending wait for UK unis to gimme a reply.

A2 results out on 25th Jan! Which is next monday... *shivers*

Another Adam Lambert video! At least not as sleazy as the For Your Entertainment video. Gosh, if only he were straight...

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2009 马来西亚华裔青年台湾观摩团

2010-01-15T21:48:00.002+08:00

我们今年的参加人数有三百余人，总共分成9支队伍，称为第一至第九车。旅程长达
21天，需缴行程费用RM 2300 + 7000台币(大约等于RM 700)，费用已包涵宿食，飞
机票等等当地入门票。。。所以我觉得是超值得的!

第一天大家会先在KL集合，并住在KL一晚 (我们今年住Ancasa Hotel, 靠近puduraya的
) 我是第一车的，我们队里有35人，包括组队长。不过在台湾，大多数都住青年活
动中心，都是超舒服，超美的，又不必争厕所，爽死了!! haha

在台北的"家"--剑潭青年活动中心，6人一房，我们的房是有double decker，4个在
下面，两个在上面。。。有些人的是6 张床排一排。厕所是一间，不过里面有分隔
开的，好像公厕。。。有2间冲凉，2间大小号的，外面有两个给梳洗的洗脸盆和镜
子。。。是真的又美，又新，又干净!

我们的行程是环岛的，只是没去台中，所以都把台湾好玩的几乎都玩完了^^中间我们
有两天的自由日，大家都跑去shopping了。。。我们的中心走路就可以到捷运站
(剑潭站)，而且也很靠近士林夜市，所以自由日那两天大家都逛到疯了 XD

观摩团好玩之处:
1. 以超值价格走完台湾!我最喜爱的几个景点/活动~

(台北)诚品。在台北101附近的书店，有点像kinokuniya，不过它有整四五层楼高，卖的不

只是书本，也有非常别致的纪念品之类的。。。超重的书香气息!!

(台北)忠烈祠的卫兵交接。。。我们看了三次的卫兵交接，只是觉得是个Taiwan must-see

(台北)淡水渔人码头的情人桥。其实是很美的，可是那晚刮大风又下雨，冷到半死，我们很

快又冲回巴士了 T。T

(花连)太鲁阁国家公园。我的最爱!!我真的没看过那么绿的河水，好想念哦。。。

花东海岸三仙台。

知本温泉。这是男女公用的，若不好意思的话可以在房间开bathtub的水自己泡。。。

不过当然一起泡的感觉比较爽啦

垦丁国家公园。我们在那里拍了好多写真集哦! 哈哈可能因为有风有树有草吧 ^^

也是垦丁国家公园里拍的

在冬至那晚我们300多个人一起搓汤圆的体验!

九族文化村。它是介绍台湾原住民的文化区 + 游乐园! 可惜时间不够，图画里是很

多人去的roller coaster，双脚是悬空的，有点像云顶的flying coaster，不过我
不敢坐 o.O

2. 吃不完的美食

几乎每个景点附近一定会卖香肠和雪糕，不知道为什么! 不过最多美食的当然是士林

夜市啦 :)

非常非常大块的鸡排，也非常非常好吃!那天晚上我们7-8个人一起吃了16样食物，一
个人平均付了少过RM20!

我反而不大喜欢这个。它外面是好像糯米，里面才是香肠。。。有点奇怪，可是是must

try的啦 ^^

青蛙下蛋。正常的好喝

水果!! 真的很好吃，尤其是释迦 ^^

绿茶红豆雪花。也是很好吃!

我觉得还好，不过很多人都说很好吃

他们说肉的比较好吃。。。

阿宗面线。

葱抓饼。很像roti canai

3. 可以狂购物!

shopping的地方我觉得最好逛的是西门丁和士林夜市。。。五分埔的店其实很多大同

小异，然后没机会去台北地下车站。。。他们说那边也很好逛。只是说我们年尾去
是冬季，所以衣服大多数以长袖，leggings,外套为主，很难找到洋装，不过boots可
以买到RM40左右的，可以穿上云顶呀 ^^

很多人狂扫mask (我的美丽日记 & sexylook)--去COSMED康是美买。化妆品也可以在那里买。。我的朋友买了6只BB Cream 叻。还有NIKE鞋。。

好后悔没买哦，因为选择真的比马来西亚多，而且价钱比较便宜(士林的NIKE店好像
比西门丁的大一点)

4. 体验难得的团队生活

好想念。。

剑潭的室友们

每餐都分享食物的桌友们

我们"真善美"的第一车

我们的辅导员油滋仔

丫敏仔

小帅名

我们在离开前真的哭到不像人样，因为真的不舍得台湾，更不舍得离开彼此。。。所

以这真的是个很不错的经验! 想要知道更多可以在这里post comment 的 ^^

I'm such a slacker.

2010-01-10T18:05:00.000+08:00

Seriously. I wish I could compartmentalize all my thoughts, feelings into different sections, because I really don't know where to start.

Taiwan was fun fun fun! Shopping was great, (maybe my next post will be a proper recommendation of places to go in taiwan) the friends I've made were awesome and so enthusiastic! Plus the food, OMG. If I didn't practice self control I'd be so obese by now T.T
I've not been reading books lately, I feel so empty and hopeless. What is my problem?
Worked as a kindergarten helper for a week now. The work's not bad, but taking care of kids can sometimes be pretty physically taxing as well, since you still have to keep an eye on them 24/7. But then again they can surprise you with their cuteness! ^^
Just came back from edu fair in KLCC. Now considering unis that have never crossed my mind! Haha time for more research =)

There are two things I dearly miss right now, which is 1) Taiwan 2) College. I wish I could do it over and over and over again. No wonder kids like merry go rounds ^^

Off to look for movies on PPS! Hopefully it'll get my mind off all unimportant worldly matters o.O

Stuck.

2010-01-03T18:59:00.000+08:00

It's like I've crawled into a narrow, dark cave, and decided to stay there. Like forever. Simply listening to the sound of water trickling above my head, the dampness of the cold air. And feeling utterly content just where I am.

Okay I got a little weirder after my Taiwan trip right? Must be due to the fact that I didn't get a Nike shoe! T.T Initially wasn't planning to get one but after spotting uber cool Nike gear from my other teammates I got super emo wei. T.T again.

In case you haven't seen the Taiwan pics on Facebook, here's the link:
--> Taiwan KMT 2009 (Part 1)
--> Taiwan KMT 2009 (Part 2)

Anyway want to say that this trip was TOTALLY worth it! (Tho I didn't get my Nike shoe.Sobs) Not just shopping wise, not just the scenery & fun stuff to do etc, but also the feeling of togetherness, esp with my group (Car 1) and also with my roomies (which sometimes consisted of people from Car 2 & Car 3). The longer & more teary-eyed post will come next I guess, not really in the mood today :)

FYI: There were a total of 9 cars/groups. My group had 35 members, including the Team Leader & Asst Team Leaders.

Going to start work as a kindergarten helper starting tomorrow! *shivers* &&& I figured that facebook really does its job of connecting people! Serious. I shall tell my facebook experience on this blog. One day la when I'm free & super inspired.

Off to eat cup noodles bought back from Taiwan! Ciaoz ^^

This is NOT a will.

2009-12-09T21:49:00.000+08:00

Off to Taiwan trip tomorrow afternoon..and realised I'll be disconnected from the virtual world for 3 whopping weeks! No Facebook, no blogging, no PPS (and I'm only halfway through The Little Nyonya! T.T) no sogou.

Sigh.

Okay I don't know why but I can't seem to find something proper, conclusive to write right now. Anyway will be praying that it will be a fulfilling and worthwhile (plus constipation-free) trip! & make more friends & shop (wisely!) & take nice nice pics (that's all we do nowadays. take pics to upload onto facebook. what a substantial life.)

My thoughts are still a little scrambled at the moment but if there's anything important please email me, don't call my handphone, will be using another number.

Thank you and let me wish you guys beforehand:

Merry X'mas and a Happy New Year!!! ^^

LOL!

2009-12-06T08:48:00.003+08:00

No offense to Twi-hard fans out there, just thought that this was funny ^^

New Moon in a Minute (Parody) - watch more funny videos

Decisions, decisions, decisions

2009-12-04T18:13:00.000+08:00

As you might've seen, our Melaka trip pics has been all over facebook so I'll just upload a couple of nice ones ^^

INTI

A LEVEL

The next time we'll really meet up will be in next year while getting our A2 results *sobs* And btw congrats to the super super smart Bee Shuang who's going to UK some time before X'Mas for an Oxford interview (for Medicine! OMG) Good luck ya, all of us have faith in you! We are all prepared to organise a farewell for you to UK already haha XD Must remember us lo when you get over there T.T

Anyway might be working as a kindergarten helper starting next year; the pay is pretty low but honestly I'm totally inexperienced with kids (since I was the one doing all the crying and not the caretaking o.O) so maybe this job will make me more maternal and less of a baby myself =)

Sis is coming back with bf tomorrow! So probably more outings, more movies and more delicious food ^^

Happiness in a tin

2009-11-26T10:40:00.008+08:00

My grandma said this was the tastiest cake we've baked so far! A fairly simple cake to bake but it's not as light as sponge cake.. Depends on personal taste I guess ^^

Butter Cake Recipe (source unknown--copied from internet but forgot the link T.T)

180 gm butter, at room temperature
150 gm caster sugar (I changed it to 125 gm but doesn't make much difference right)
50 gm milk powder
140 gm all purpose flour
30 gm cornflour
1 tsp baking powder (to be sifted together with the dry ingredients)
another 1/2 tsp baking powder (beaten with egg white)
3 medium size eggs, separated
1 tsp vanilla essence
80 ml milk

Method:

Preheat oven to 180 C. Grease loaf cake tin/8" square mould with butter (I didn't grease 'cause mine was non-stick)
Sift the flour, cornflour, milk powder and 1 tsp baking powder together in a big bowl
In a mixing bowl, beat the butter and sugar till creamy and fluffy, add in the egg yolks one at a time and mix to combine. Add the vanilla essence and mix thoroughly. Add the sifted dry ingredients and mix to combine thoroughly. Add the milk and mix.
Whisk the egg white with the 1/2 tsp of baking powder till soft peaks form. Fold into the batter mixture and combine thoroughly.
Pour the loaf cake tin and bake for 45 mins. Turn the heat down to 170 degrees and bake for a further 15 mins (do the toothpick test) Cover loosely with a foil if the top browns too much.

And just finished watching 500 days of summer on PPStream. An awesome, quirky romantic comedy! It's a boy-meets-girl show but different in so many ways! E.g. they went to watch a movie called Vagiant--Part vampire part giant HAHAHA And doesn't Summer (leading actress--by Zooey Deschanel) look and sound so much like Katy Perry? Plus Tom (leading actor--by Joseph Gordon-Levitt) is so cute! in a geeky way ^^

Remember folks, you heard it first from Charlie!

2009-11-24T21:54:00.005+08:00

(I seem to have a thing for lists lately eh?)

Though I've been totally open about Adam Lambert being gay & stuff but I just couldn't take this. Honestly. And it wasn't like a peck on the cheek okay! Super scandalous! Worse that Lady Gaga's outrageous fashion sense + dance moves combined o.O Click here for the video.
2012 was pretty much a larger scale remake of The Day After Tomorrow & Knowing & all similar apocalyptic movies... I just watched the movie ~~to listen to Time for Miracles by Adam Lambert at the end~~ 'cause it was the current hype... Just thought that it would give people the impression that the end of the world WOULD be on 21-12-2012, which I think WON'T be that day simply because everyone THINKS it's that day. Lol I sound so philosophical.

Ok since I'm already renowned for my emo-ness, just found some images from icanread.com that pretty much sums up the cause of my recent pimple outbreak T.T

And really thankful for this:

Okay almost time for Gossip Girl! You know you love me. XOXO ^^

The List.

2009-11-23T13:34:00.000+08:00

Find a job (DONE! but haven't got any offers yet la)- Went to Chuen Min Primary School to ask for a placement as temporary teacher... Luckily the students SH & I saw were still shorter than me! At Std 6! MUHAHAHAHA This sounds so wrong
Dental Checkup (DONE!)- Had to do 2 fillings (each costing RM 95! and I don't even eat sweets that often T.T)
Haircut (DONE!) - Now I'm back to short hair minus the fringe! No pics cause of sudden pimple outbreak I mean who gets pimples after exams T.T
NaNoWriMo - very unlikely to complete. I've barely started since I'd been busy looking for tour groups for the past week o.O Not complaining to S2-ians kay.. it's just a statement...I like doing it actually ^^
Dedicate a song to yenwoon (DONE!) - as you could've seen in my last post I have universally displayed my lack of vocal ability
Book + Movie Marathon - It has been taking forever to load movies on Tudou & I'm currently on The Hobbit by JRR Tolkien.. Does NOT count as a marathon yet leh..
Clean up the house - Just cleaned up my bookshelf & CD rack! Threw away CDs that date back to 1995 when MS-DOS was still used o.O
Diet! - I've been having an unsatiable appetite lately. And no motivation to exercise. Sigh *rubs inflated belly*

Excited 'bout Taiwan trip! Anyone knows the cheapest place to shop in Taiwan?

To: Koo Yen Woon

2009-11-21T10:03:00.002+08:00

Here's dedication back to you! My friend of 9 years :D I sound really bad & out of breath & missing notes here and there but hope you don't mind...& it's damn long & I didn't really brush my hair & tidy up the bed & I'm NOT representing Rumah B of SMJK Kwang Hua despite wearing its T shirt.. Sorry rumah B...

So despite its shortcomings hopefully you'll enjoy it (and stop yourself from puking)

还记得小小年纪
松开我的手迷失的你
在人群里看见你一边哭泣手还握着冰淇淋
有时候难过生气
你总有办法逗我开心
依然清晰回忆里那些曾经有笑有泪的光阴
我们的生命先后顺序在同个温室里
也是存在在这个世界唯一的唯一
未来的每一步一脚印
踏着彼此梦想前进
路上偶尔风吹雨淋
也要握紧你的手心
未来的每一步一脚印
相知相惜相依为命
别忘记之间的约定
我会永远在你身边陪着你!
还记得小小年纪
松开我的手迷失的你
在人群里看见你一边哭泣手还握着冰淇淋
有时候难过生气
你总有办法逗我开心
依然清晰回忆里那些曾经有笑有泪的光阴
我们的生命先后顺序在同个温室里
也是存在在这个世界唯一的唯一
未来的每一步一脚印
踏着彼此梦想前进
路上偶尔风吹雨淋
也要握紧你的手心
未来的每一步一脚印
相知相惜相依为命
别忘记彼此的约定
我会永远在你身边陪着你!
oh..
未来的每一步一脚印
踏着彼此梦想前进
路上偶尔风吹雨淋
也要握紧你的手心
未来的每一步一脚印
相知相惜相依为命
别忘记彼此的约定
我会永远在你身边陪着你!
现在我唱的这首歌曲
给我最亲爱的弟弟
在我未来生命之旅
要和你同手同脚同走下去

Erm some parts don't really apply 'cause you've been more of the big sis and me d lil one.. so ignore those parts ya haha

Superjabberwockyjoyfulsweetwackyness!

2009-11-17T22:29:00.000+08:00

Exams officially over!

*does crazy tribal dance*

More updates soon! Now planning our class trip on a tight tight schedule :)

Finished reading A Gracious Plenty by Sheri Reynolds! Check out what I think here.

SALE!! aaand an excerpt from a soap opera -_-"

2009-11-14T17:11:00.007+08:00

OMGosh it's a freaking SALE!!! up to 90% wei *eyes widen* There are Jodi Picoults & Nora Roberts (not that I'm a big fan of them, just making a point) marked down from RM 33 to RM8!!!

Okay now I just need someone to send me there. But I can always go by LRT... Apparently you can take Putra LRT line and get down at Taman Jaya LRT Station. *looks around in hopes of getting a lift*

A waaay too long break before my final 2 papers for A2 has left me with excessive time to recount and recount my marks (lost!) in my head over & over again... And rethink how I truly value myself. And of course how people value me too.

TRUTH:
Dad, though you tell me it's okay, I can take a course I like, but when I told you I applied for BioEng for all 5 UK unis, you gave me that usual "are-you-sure-it's-a-good-course" scoff. And yet you don't tell it to me straight to my face. And EVER SO SUBTLY hint that you want me to take pharmacy/medicine.

QUESTION:
Why are people so concerned about ACHIEVEMENTS? And why am I so concerned about MY achievement? Sometimes I feel that I score well to make myself worthy. Worthy of being who I've always appeared to be in front of relatives, friends etc... A hardworking, studious, does well in exams person. Obviously there's nothing wrong with that but. Why can't I be MORE than that?

I want to do amazing things. Things that will enrich my life. Touch people's lives. I envy those people braving heights, climbing Mt Everest though knowing very well that people have died in the process. Going on missionary trips to places I've never even known existed. Or even just spending a day in an old folks home, listening to their (mis)adventures in their youths so they can relive the moment.

Yes, that's it. I want some memory, a fragment of an out-of-this-world experience that I can share with my grandchildren.

GOSH this IS seriously an emo post! This is the FIRST time I actually feel like crying while writing a post. Maybe it's time for me to flip thru the Bible; God has an amazing way with words, serious :)

OKAY I'm fine now! *sniff*

It's all about the wordplay

2009-11-11T20:39:00.006+08:00

It's one of those anti-climactic days where I wished I could either be insanely busy or totally bored; not hovering over two extremes.. T.T.. I know I NEED to study, but so soon?

Image by ฿lαcĸouт14* via Flickr

I'd rather not talk about my A2 papers thus far (due to mixed feelings! it's complicated) but the good news is there's only 2 more papers left! Physics 5 and Bio 5 next Mon and Tues respectively, hence the reason for this (extremely!) wordy post :)

Just watched The Proposal this afternoon on PPStream I haven't been to the cinemas for, like almost half a year... My last movie was Drag Me To Hell o.O

I don't know why but I've always felt Sandra Bullock looks a bit like Michael Jackson; but then again I've always thought dad looked like Dr Mahathir ^^

Okay anyway I'm having a random surge to say this...

Why Adam Lambert is my ultimate FAV singer
He's talented, PLUS he knows it, and embraces it. That's what I envy about people like him; knowing where one's potential lies, actively pursing that passion and being confident about doing it. Not just in the entertainment industry etc; just like being a tornado chaser or something; these people are so infatuated with storms they can spend their whole lives chasing, tracking and analysing them! To me it's like GOSH HOW CAN YOU LOVE A TORNADO (???) I think I've been watching too much National Geographic on TV1 lately... I'm starting to feel that global warming is an imminent threat to the world! you should've seen the rate of melting glacier

Oh ya as you might've noticed (obviously) I've changed to an orange-y blog background and now it looks like I'm celebrating a belated halloween, but me likey! It gives people the impression that I have some sort of artistic flair (which of course I don't).. And I might change the header sometime soon since it doesn't really fit into the background o.O

Ending the post with some wishful thinking! Things to do after A2:

Dental checkup and scaling actually I skipped my bi-annual checkup a few months back 'cause the receptionist was coughing when I called to check if there were anyone waiting for the dentist... I was really paranoid about H1N1 back then
NaNoWriMo! I tried to do it last year but failed due to problems persevering... Hopefully I'll be able to pull through this time round
Dedicate a song back to yenwoon :) check out what she sang here.
Movie + book marathon! I have a sudden craving for Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind~
Prepare for my trip to Taiwan from 10th-31st Dec ^^ Suat Hoon, CC & I all got chosen! But I think I'll be going for a simple flu shot just to be on the safe side :)

Okay till then!

This lit up my day :)

2009-11-06T17:30:00.001+08:00

How do they do it without bursting into laughter?